there will be no white flag above my door, im in love and always will be
confused.
lost.
scared.
I Love You.
headache
pure love.
on the verge of being destroyed
im so confused with everything that is going on. im driving myself madd and no one quite understands or has the time to hear me out. now i know how everyone felt when i stopped talking to everyone and how i was never there anymore. im sorry my heart was somewhere else where it still is, but i am going to try and go back to the way things were i got so wrapped up in my love for shayna that i stopped realizing who was always there for me and how i should be there for them. right now i really just need my best friend who i no longer talk to. who everyday i grow to hate more and more. i found out yesterday that shayna slept at her house after 05.05.05 which is just fucking marvelous i mean it was so long ago but to know that my "best friend" my other half someone who i honestly believed i would grow old with her right by my side. lied to me. continued to lie to me. and oh yeah still continues to lie to me. i hate her hate her with a fucking flying passion. i honestly cannot care anymore. i need to start my life over. i had an un healed wound and it was interferring in mine and shaynas relationship so instead of fixing mine and shibs relationship i decided i should start new with shayna. but ofcourse it didnt quite start the way i wanted. shib is int he picture with us. shes like a fucking nightmare i cant get out of my head. whenever she comes up. shayna and i fight. and i mean its easy for everyone to jump and be like "oh its 'cause shayna still has feelings for her" but thats not it at all. shayna and i love eachother. i dont know what we would do without eachother. and thats a fact. im not a fucking idiot i know. and nicole a shibelli just as everyone always told me she would. fucked around with my life. with the one thing i care most about. she fucked around with. so thank you. i watched a video yesterday of back in the day when me and shib hung out all the time and were best friends. well either way im feeling a bit better i believe im going to go shopping with my little sister.
lost.
scared.
I Love You.
headache
pure love.
on the verge of being destroyed
im so confused with everything that is going on. im driving myself madd and no one quite understands or has the time to hear me out. now i know how everyone felt when i stopped talking to everyone and how i was never there anymore. im sorry my heart was somewhere else where it still is, but i am going to try and go back to the way things were i got so wrapped up in my love for shayna that i stopped realizing who was always there for me and how i should be there for them. right now i really just need my best friend who i no longer talk to. who everyday i grow to hate more and more. i found out yesterday that shayna slept at her house after 05.05.05 which is just fucking marvelous i mean it was so long ago but to know that my "best friend" my other half someone who i honestly believed i would grow old with her right by my side. lied to me. continued to lie to me. and oh yeah still continues to lie to me. i hate her hate her with a fucking flying passion. i honestly cannot care anymore. i need to start my life over. i had an un healed wound and it was interferring in mine and shaynas relationship so instead of fixing mine and shibs relationship i decided i should start new with shayna. but ofcourse it didnt quite start the way i wanted. shib is int he picture with us. shes like a fucking nightmare i cant get out of my head. whenever she comes up. shayna and i fight. and i mean its easy for everyone to jump and be like "oh its 'cause shayna still has feelings for her" but thats not it at all. shayna and i love eachother. i dont know what we would do without eachother. and thats a fact. im not a fucking idiot i know. and nicole a shibelli just as everyone always told me she would. fucked around with my life. with the one thing i care most about. she fucked around with. so thank you. i watched a video yesterday of back in the day when me and shib hung out all the time and were best friends. well either way im feeling a bit better i believe im going to go shopping with my little sister.