Half My Mothers Daughter
Diary,
Today was a fine day. I saw Bade Jounds when I dropped off her boot. My kittens are now confined to my room because they peed in the living just too many times. I cleaned my room today and yesterday. I went shopping today and got a poloroid camera and film. I went to three Goodwills and Salvation Army. Oddly, my mother has to take a urine analysis tomarro and today asked me what she should do about it. We went to Market of Choice after Giseppis and got sleeping aid for me, Niacin for mother, sushi, and olives. She took four Niacin. I talked to Matt and Max. They invited me to Matt's play Grease in California. He is Danny, just like exactly three years ago. The first time we met. When i saw him i knew he would be awesome.
I run as fast as I can run.. But jack comes tumbling after
here i am this open wound hoping for something to define me
I have no definition, no place i am supposed to be
when i wake up in the morning i watch the sun rise
i ignore those people when they realize it was all lies
theres something funny in the way they smile
like sheep theyre are different but the same style
so finally when they realize the truth i realize they are fake
but i cant say thats why theres those pill i have to take
And there is only one spot left on the moving sidewalk to hell
The devil sings a red song and his cane breaks my thin shell
He rips open my chest, tears out my heart
drips my blood down canvas, my work of art
keeps my soul captive in a steel cage hanging from the wall
my body lays below me and thats where im worried i will fall
his sharp nails cut open my brain to see whats inside
He laughs when he knows that i have cried
theres a messy pile of thoughts and words only the devil knows
out of the middle, he pulls out a thorny bleeding red rose
the rose burns his bloody fingers but the devil doesnt mind
underneath the bloody mess he knows not what he will find
My soul screams so loudly but no one can hear
My soul wants to just make my mind dissapear
So the devil cannot see what is hidden below the grungy mess
a bleeding heart. a real heart. this is not what he did guess
He dropped it in dismay, this isnt the girl he brought down with him
He laughed up at my soul above. "your future will be grim"
theres no words strong enough to describe what happened then
and bright starving light shined upon my soul taking me again
then i was gone.
i suppose i was withdrawn
so who is to say theres anywhere more?
because i am nowhere. ill shut the door
the door is almost closed when i rethink and leave a little sliver of light
blahblah..
rambling..
Today was a fine day. I saw Bade Jounds when I dropped off her boot. My kittens are now confined to my room because they peed in the living just too many times. I cleaned my room today and yesterday. I went shopping today and got a poloroid camera and film. I went to three Goodwills and Salvation Army. Oddly, my mother has to take a urine analysis tomarro and today asked me what she should do about it. We went to Market of Choice after Giseppis and got sleeping aid for me, Niacin for mother, sushi, and olives. She took four Niacin. I talked to Matt and Max. They invited me to Matt's play Grease in California. He is Danny, just like exactly three years ago. The first time we met. When i saw him i knew he would be awesome.
I run as fast as I can run.. But jack comes tumbling after
here i am this open wound hoping for something to define me
I have no definition, no place i am supposed to be
when i wake up in the morning i watch the sun rise
i ignore those people when they realize it was all lies
theres something funny in the way they smile
like sheep theyre are different but the same style
so finally when they realize the truth i realize they are fake
but i cant say thats why theres those pill i have to take
And there is only one spot left on the moving sidewalk to hell
The devil sings a red song and his cane breaks my thin shell
He rips open my chest, tears out my heart
drips my blood down canvas, my work of art
keeps my soul captive in a steel cage hanging from the wall
my body lays below me and thats where im worried i will fall
his sharp nails cut open my brain to see whats inside
He laughs when he knows that i have cried
theres a messy pile of thoughts and words only the devil knows
out of the middle, he pulls out a thorny bleeding red rose
the rose burns his bloody fingers but the devil doesnt mind
underneath the bloody mess he knows not what he will find
My soul screams so loudly but no one can hear
My soul wants to just make my mind dissapear
So the devil cannot see what is hidden below the grungy mess
a bleeding heart. a real heart. this is not what he did guess
He dropped it in dismay, this isnt the girl he brought down with him
He laughed up at my soul above. "your future will be grim"
theres no words strong enough to describe what happened then
and bright starving light shined upon my soul taking me again
then i was gone.
i suppose i was withdrawn
so who is to say theres anywhere more?
because i am nowhere. ill shut the door
the door is almost closed when i rethink and leave a little sliver of light
blahblah..
rambling..