Diary
dear diary,
I am watching a movie. A movie called Mother Night. It is strange. This man was a spy and his wife died. Its weird cause he fell in love with his wifes little sister who pretended to be his wife and he had sex with her and she told him the next day. Its REALLY WEIRD. i watched hellraiser at chipshouse. chips house is where i enjoy myself mostest. i feel strange about everything. fuck me. i love pabst.i want to buy some. i think i will.tomarro!! WEEEEHEEEEE
my head itches.
The wind blows.
and my mind quivers unknowingly because i will pretend no less.
i am only here.i am only one girl. one human beings, those fellows who i despise greatly. whose filth rots in their own need in their own love and wanting. i wish only to sit and be. the things that make us human are our wants and feelings. death does not bother those who are cut off from wanting and needing. I want so much only to be. but that keeps me human, that keeps me sane. as much as i want keeps me sane. if i didnt i wouldnt be sane and my need to just be would be won. i think thats the only way i could ever be truly me, or be truly happy. when i grow older and live as one self i will be insane. Either insane or RICH. rich and insane. insane i sthe way i wantto be. the want.. the need.. fuck it all.
i will not ever cower in my own danger.
I am watching a movie. A movie called Mother Night. It is strange. This man was a spy and his wife died. Its weird cause he fell in love with his wifes little sister who pretended to be his wife and he had sex with her and she told him the next day. Its REALLY WEIRD. i watched hellraiser at chipshouse. chips house is where i enjoy myself mostest. i feel strange about everything. fuck me. i love pabst.i want to buy some. i think i will.tomarro!! WEEEEHEEEEE
my head itches.
The wind blows.
and my mind quivers unknowingly because i will pretend no less.
i am only here.i am only one girl. one human beings, those fellows who i despise greatly. whose filth rots in their own need in their own love and wanting. i wish only to sit and be. the things that make us human are our wants and feelings. death does not bother those who are cut off from wanting and needing. I want so much only to be. but that keeps me human, that keeps me sane. as much as i want keeps me sane. if i didnt i wouldnt be sane and my need to just be would be won. i think thats the only way i could ever be truly me, or be truly happy. when i grow older and live as one self i will be insane. Either insane or RICH. rich and insane. insane i sthe way i wantto be. the want.. the need.. fuck it all.
i will not ever cower in my own danger.