our hearts will go on (2)

[iwonism]

Title: our hearts will go on
Pairing: Akame
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I don't own anyone. and not the whole story.
Summary: they met under crucial circumstances, but..they're soulmates after all..

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Kazuya was suddenly very nervous about how he looks like. He payed extra attention to his hair and styled them over and over until he sighed convinced he can't get them any better. He didn't want to wear a suit, but there was no choice. So he chose one of those he liked and instead of tie he pick up bow tie. To choose the right one took some time, so when he finished with approving look in mirror it was almost time to go dowstairs to big fancy dining room.
He secretly wished he could have dinner with Jin alone, to listen to his stories, to laugh and not pay attention to what he was saying because he could tell Jin everything. It was scary on the other side. He knew Jin just one day yet he thought like he known him his whole life. Like he was always there, but just hiding in shadows because Kazuya didn't look properly. He somehow managed to light up Kazuya's life. And he didn't want to let go of that source of light. Never.
As he came to big stairs, trailing behind his family who were happy talking about some nonsense again with his fiancee, his heart stopped beating.
Jin was down there, looking handsome like never before. He was also in suit, but without tie. A few buttons from his shirt where opened which revealed his chest and some jewelery. His dark wavy hair was beautifuly styled and he didn't look nervous at all. Just full confident like he belonged exactly here.
Kazuya could't fight that smile which spread all over his face. He came downstairs and they both bowed a little- then they burst in quiet laughter.
,,Wow..you..you look dazzling." Kame managed still slightly giggling.
,,Well, you too. As always." Jin winked at Kame who once again gained that beautiful pink color on his cheeks. Jin loved that color. And he felt really smug about fact that he was causing it.
,,Ehm, father..mother." Kazuya started when they join them. ,,Do you remember Akanishi-san?"
Surprise was all over they faces. They bowed just a little. ,,Well enjoy your dinner, Akanishi-san."
,,Thank you, sir. I will." Jin smiled, not looking scared even for a second. Or he was just very good at hiding it.
,,Where is your tie?" Came the voice behind them.
,,Oh..I hate ties. I look better like this." Jin just rolled his eyes.
,,N-Nakamaru? You two know each other?" Kazuya asked buffled by this conversation.
,,Well..let's say that yes." He laughed and slightly patted Jin on the back.
,,Yeah, you know I'm friendly person." He also laughed and shrugged.
,,Hmm..well shall we?" He gestured to the dining room and although he was slightly confused, he decided to drop that topic and maybe find out later.
The thing about these dinners were that before they let you eat you have to chat with dozens of people about business. Kazuya started quietly explaining Jin who is who, who has business with who.
,,Myy God I never thought that there are such complicated relationships." He sighed and Kazuya just chuckled. Jin was really cute. Almost pouting. With his full lips it was totally adorable.
,,It's actually really easy. Just pretend you're one of them. Maybe some producent in America. They will love you. They love everyone who has money." Kazuya said, not hiding his disgust.
,,Heee..I can do that." Jin nodded in approval. ,,You know I was wondering, why you're going to Japan by boat? Isn't it easier and quickier by plane?"
,,Yeah but everyone here want to kiss ass of that moron who made up this boat." Kazuya whispered to his ear and in that moment Jin felt slight shiver along his spine.
,,Oh..ah..I get it." He jost nodded again, now he kind of blushing.
Actual dinner was going well, they were sitting around table with maybe ten other people. By Jin right side was Nakamaru, what made him really happy because he could talk with him not just about business. Altough Nakamaru was slightly biased on enviroment.
Kazuya happy observed Jin's talking. He was brilliant. He didn't hasitate for even a second with his answers or questions. Like he really belonged to this world. Almost everybody in this room would believe it. But not Kazuya. For him Jin was the most outstanding person.
He could feel sometimes Jin's eyes flicker to his direction and it was sending shiver all over his body. But it was warm feeling. He liked it.
,,Akanishi-san what are you doing for living?" This question withdrawed Kazuya from his daydreaming. His mother. Of course.
,,Well I was playing in one bar in America. I'm musician." Jin said munching on his sandwich.
,,He also writes lyrics. I saw them, they are really good." Kazuya couldn't help but add. Jin shoot him charming smile.
,,Well, we all know Kazuya's taste in music right?" His father laughed.
Altough everyone laughed as well, Kazuya didn't.
,,And what about your parents? They approve of your ehm..lifestyle?" Kazuya's mother continued.
,,They passed away so I really don't know what are they thinking about my lifestyle. I was living on my own since I was fifteen years old." Jin replied and didn't seemed to be offended at all.
,,Oh I'm sorry to hear that." Nakamaru was the one who said something after awkward silence.
,,It's okay. I managed. I'm still living and breathing right?" He laughed. ,,I learned to live every single day to the fullest. With all I have. I like meeting new people, exploring new places. I like it when I don't know what will happen next. Like here..I won ticket to this boat in poker. So I just packed my stuff and left. And look at me now, I'm drinking with highest class of Japan society." He smiled again and rised his glass. Now everyone was laughing and followed his lead. ,,Live everyday like it was last..and make it count." he toasted and his eyes was deeply in Kazuya's.
,,Make it count." everyone was saying and clinging their glasses together.
After they ate, men went to the bar to have some whiskey and talk more about how perfect they are and that was singnal for Jin to leave. Kazuya quickly stood up.
,,I have to go back, thanks for everything." Jin said with big grin.
,,No..thank you.." Kazuya shook his head and smiled, suddenly very sad.
,,Bye." Jin was offering him his hand.
,,Yeah..bye." Kazuya hesitantly took it and shake it but when he let go he felt something in his palm. He quickly fist his hand around some paper and looked confused on Jin. The latter just winked, turned around and left.
Kazuya sat down and when he checked no one is looking he unfolded small piece of paper.

-Make it count, meet me at the stairs-

He quickly excused himself with saying he is going to bed and when he came to the stairs, Jin was really waiting there.
,,You wanted to experience a real party?"

And it was one hell of a party. Kazuya was never at a place like this. It was like in one of those movies he sometimes watched or in music videos he sometimes catched on music channels. Simply amazing. There where lights everywhere and loud music and people and alcohol maybe drugs and oh my god everything which was forbidden for him. But he didn't care.
Now he was sitting by a bar, face on the dance floor where was Jin. Dancing. And damn, he knew the moves. Kazuya had almost choked on his beer when he watched Jin move his hips to the beat.
By his right side was Jin's friend something-pi. They made just quick introduction because it was impossible to hear something in this load music. And thank god they made a little detour to Jin's wardrobe because he pointed that they would look like idiots there with suits and all. So now he was wearing white t-shirt with black skull on it and Jin's tightest jeans he had, which fit Kazuya just right. And he felt the most beautiful and stylish in his whole life. Sure he had some casual clothes in his wardrobe, but the amount was ridiculously small and they were not so cool.
,,Hey there, having fun?" He suddenly heard in his left ear joyful voice. Smile spread on his face when he recognized Jin.
Kazuya just nodded enthusiastically.
,,Then let me show you what is more fun than sitting here." Jin again almost shouted to his ear and before Kame could said something he was dragged to dance floor.
,,But..but I don't know how to dance." Kame tried to explain.
,,Sure you do..just..close your eyes..and feel it." Jin was suddenly very close.
The song which was playing had a nice rythm- something spanish in it.
,,Oh.." surprised yelp escaped his lips when he felt Jin's hands on his hips and he was pressed on his body. He started hesitantly moving with him, but he had the urge to scan the crowd if someone wasn't looking weird on them. But no one really was. Everybody was in their own world.
,,No one knows you here, everyone is paying attention to themselves, relax..and dance." Jin said gently to his ear when he find out why was Kazuya so nervous.
Next song was something what Kazuya known so he had more confidence. He put his hand on Jin's shoulders and really started dancing with him.
It felt incredible. He was never this close to anyone. It was overwhelming and he never wanted to stop. The way Jin's hands held him close, the way he felt his chest against his, light breath on his neck. All at once he felt this breath on his face. Jin was looking straight to his eyes, like searching something and when he found nothing disturbing he started to lean closer..
,,Heey theeere you are guys, come drink with me!" And the moment was gone in a minute something-pi beamed at them with wide smile which by the way Jin felt the urge to smash right away.
,,Fine let's go." he groaned and lead them to the free spot at the bar.
The night was going on and on and the more they drunk the more the laughed and Kazuya ended up showing his dance which he learned from Leah Dizon PV. Jin had almost heart attack when he watched Kazuya already all giggly crouch on the floor with his back facing them and then jump with his legs astride and slap his right buttock and than did everything all over again but he slapped his left. Yamapi laughed so hard he had to held on the counter. Kazuya laughed too but his cheeks were again beautifully pink, but Jin, he couldn't laugh because he was slightly in shock. Because Kazuya looked so hot he had to took deep breath not tu jump him right on the spot.
Around three in the morning they decided to call it a night and Jin offered to walk Kazuya to his cabin. Fortunately there was no one on the deck at this time otherwise he'd have witnessed two men singing old japanese song which they ended up not knowing words, just adding 'something something'. They were giggling, but when they came to the big doors with sign 1st class, their laughter slowly faded.
,,I don't want to go back." Kazuya mumbled with sad smile.
,,Then don't." Jin shrugged and proped up his arms on some riders which held boat together.
,,Hmmm.." He smiled sheepishly some more and walk to the railing of the boat, where Jin followed.
,,I've never seen so many stars." Kazuya said after minute of silence.
,,You can see them like that only on the boat." Jin replied and titled his head backwards a little bit. 
,,Yeah I kno- Oh look a shooting star!" he yelped, pointed out and turned around along with the star.
,,That was a long one." Jin followed with his gaze and frowned slightly.
,,They said you should wish something when they're falling." Kazuya explained and turned to face Jin.
,,What would you wish for?" he asked and gazed deeply in Kazuya's brown orbs.
There was a moment of silence, like Kazuya known what he wanted, but didn't know how to say it.
,,Something I can never have. Good night Jin." He slowly backed few steps away and then turned on his heels and left quickly.
And Jin was staring.

He had to really tried not to show his hangover from the last night but he somehow managed. His mother and fiancee went already to the pool to gain some brown skin and they didn't look suspicious at all. Now he was sitting just with his father by a cup of coffee and his laptop. Everything seemed peacefull. Yet.
,,Did you had fun last night?"
,,What?" To tell he was shocked by this question would be understatement.
,,In a club with all those dangerous people. Drinking. Is this what I taught you?" his voice seemed calm but Kazuya knew better. Speeking of dangerous people.
,,I..I..wanted just to ..thank properly to Akanishi-san." he said quietly looking on the floor.
,,By dancing with him? Kazuya you won't see that guy ever again do you understand me?"
,,Wha- you send your guy watch over me?" He asked rather surprised when it became clear to him.
,,I said, do you understand me?!" Kamenashi-san raised his voice and in his eyes was nothing but anger. And disgust. ,,You have fiancee, you are a straight man and you will marry her!" he shouted and to add to his threat half of things on table fell to the ground and shattered to small pieces.
,,But I don't love her. I don't want her!" Kazuya shouted back, what he probably shouldn't have because his head was suddenly turned to the side by big slap from his father.
,,I-don't-care. But you WILL marry her."
With this his father left and Kazuya felt hot tears streaming along his cheeks down to his jaw.
,,You shouldn't be so surprised."
He quickly started to wipe his tears away when he heard his mother's voice. ,,At least Shiori doesn't know anything about this. What you're doing Kazuya? You hate us so much?" she continued and started to picking pieces of shattered glass to dish-cloth.
He wanted to say yes but he bit his tongue and stayed silent.
,,You need to listen to your father. We need this marriage otherwise we won't survive in this world. We need this deal. You too. What will you do when we'll have nothing Kazuya?" She looked on him with pleading eyes asking him to understand.
He couldn't say a word. She was right, of course. Was he really ready to lose all this because of some guy? Jin wasn't some random guy, he knew that, but still. He couldn't be so selfish.
,,You won't see him again. Ever. Now put your swimsuit and go sunbathe with Shiori."
,,Yes mother."

,,...my body is talking to you." Jin end up singing and smiled. He finally finished some song. Maybe he needed just right motivation.
,,Niiice..I didn't know you are so sappy." His best friend was grinning. At it was annoying.
,,Shut up Pi." he retorted and scribbled something on paper.
It was beautiful sunny day. He was just in his shorts and t-shirt, guitar in his hands, cigarette in his mouth.  It was early after lunch so he thought he could stop by Kazuya. Maybe they could have a walk again.
,,You are smiling like an idiot you know that?" Yamapi just couldn't let go.
Smile was immediately gone and he instead glared at Pi. ,,What is exactly your problem?"
,,None man, just..I haven't seen you like this. In love or whatever. And I'm just worried okay. He is not like us." Pi was now looking ahead of him, on water of ocean, where sun was creating beautiful reflex.
,,I..I know okay. I just..he is.." He didn't know what to say. He knew they were from totally different worlds and that between them stood some powerfull people, but he couldn't help his feelings. Kazuya got him. From the moment he saw him. ,,..I have to see him." Jin finally said and stood up.
,,Jin..wait.."
But Jin was already gone. The boat was fucking big but he thought he can find Kazuya on 1st class deck outside, because who was in such a beautiful day inside? So let's see. No Kazuya next to ice-cream shop, no Kazuya watching dolphins, no Kazu- ah there is that man who was with Kamenashi-san.
,,Hello, can you please tell me where is Kazuya?" He asked when he approached him.
,,Akanishi-san, Kamenashi's family is grateful for what you did and that you joined them at dinner, but I was told to remind you that 1st class isn't class you are travelling with. So please, be kind and return to your part of the boat."
Jin was now glarring. What the fuck. ,,I just want to speak with him..I..Kame!" He shouted when he recognized him by a pool behind the door.
,,Akanishi-san please, leave." Man tried to persuade him and meanwhile winked at security.
,,Kame..Kame!" Jin tried to get his attention but possibility that Kame heard him was really small. ,,Get out of my way, I just want to talk to him!" He tried tu push that annoying man away but suddenly some other hands grabbed his arms. Fuck. Security.
,,This isn't your part of boat young man, let's go back." said one of them and he was led away.
When he was back in is cabin he toppled down on the bed and let out frustrated groan. What the fuck was that? He can't even see him? Did that order came from Kazuya? No he was sure that boy wouldn't do that. Kazuya liked him. He saw it in his eyes yesterday night. When he was leaning closer, ready to kiss that perfectly shaped lips...yeah until PiG arrived.
That's it. He can't just sit here with no anwers. He had to sneak in somehow.
Jin grabbed his sunglasses and went to pool again. It was situated in the middle of the boat on the highest deck, so now he chose opposite entrance.

Kazuya get out of a pool and ruffled his hair to get rid of a water. Sun was shining so bright that drops along his body were drying immediately. He wanted to keep himself busy, to not think about this morning. To forget about his situation. So he grabbed a towel and went to his sunbed to  read a book but somehow along the road he was dragged to small storage room. And in front of him was Jin.
,,Fu, finally." he panted and smiled.
Kazuya on the other hand had just tears in his eyes. ,,J-jin you can't be here."
,,What? What are you talking about? I wanted to see you so much Kame."
,,You..you can't! Ever. I..we are different. We had fun, thank you for rescue and..everything but. It's over. I have life..you have life..so continue with it." He was talking but didn't seem to be content with it at all.
,,Kame..Kazuya, look at me." Jin slightly grabbed his chin to force him to look him in the eyes.
,,No Jin! I have a fiancee and I'm gonna marry her. We can't do this. I do love her." He insist but avoided Jin's gaze.
,,I don't believe you. They force you right? Your father somehow find out that you were at a club right? Kazuya tell me the truth." He pressed him to the wall and forced him to look at him. Kazuya's eyes were full of tears. Lips parted a little and he was starting breathing heavily. Jin's body didn't help the fact that he wanted to push him away. His warmth was instead dragging him in.
,,The truth is..that.." he took a deep breath. ,,..I can't be selfish with this. I have to marry her and you have to let me go." He finished and gently pushed him away.
,,No..no this...this is wrong! You are not that person who you pretend to be with them. You are amazing Kazuya. Childlish and everything but simply amazing! You are not that guy in a suit with lifeless expression on his face. You are that smiley boy who danced Leah Dizon! And I know I have nothing to offer  you, I don’t have much money and we are both guys I know all that, but.. they will destroy you. It will kill you! Maybe not yet, because you are strong but eventually..that Kazuya with whom I fell in love..will be gone." Jin ended up whispering and gently put Kazuya's hair behind his ear. In his eyes was showing all love he could offer and he wanted, needed, wished..Kazuya could see that and return it. But he closed his eyes and let go off the boy. ,,Save yourself Kazuya."  He couldn't force him like his family. He needed to let him decide even if that meant he will never see him again. And when he opened his eyes. He was standing alone.