no matter what happens...

[iwishiwasalive]

the agony of living will pound away at the door of life
until you let go of the distractions that keep you from answering the door
its always going to be there its never going to stop
and when you decide to end your life
it will still echoe from your grave
it will still drive you insane
it will ruin you and torture your soul
it will ruin the purpose of choice and you won't be whole

but its not that bad

because once you're gone
the memories start to fade
from the minds of your loved ones
and you become a side issue that no one wants to mention
it will become painful to remember and taboo to discuss
and so you will become lost to those that loved you
you will be lost in time and will lose all faith

i can't fall asleep anymore, but it feels like i can't wake up.