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If one thing is true is this world, it is this: PMS is the worst punishment on women ever. everything makes me so angry. Melissa came up to me today and said "Oh, we're going to do Dramapolooza again this year." And my response was.... "ummmm.... oh? we are?" To which she just smiles and says yeah!. Umm... "And this is not all on me, and up to me?" "Uhhhh.... no." ...UhHuh. Don't you think you need to at least run these things by me? I mean this made me so angry. And then she rolled her eyes and walke doff like I was the crazy one. Ummm... Hello? I feel like I'm the only one with any fucking common sense around. I have SO many thigs going on right now.. I'm in two plays, and auditions pending for the best and most important one in my life thus far, and two drama club fundraisers I have to organize all on my own, and excuse me if I'm a little fucking busy to put up with everyone's flaky bullshit. Ugh.
For the past two nights I have dreamt about this play. I dreamnt I saw the cast list...
Aurelia... me
Constance... Halley
Josaphine... Natasha
Gabrielle.... Angel
Irma......... Tamara
Ugh... This is killing me.. my heart is already breaking b/c I just know it won't be me. God how long to finally see my name at the top of a list. I hate myself... I'm so stuck up and concieded. But, I just.... I don't know. I don't know what I'll do. I'll be devastated, and probably have to just move on.. I mean, If I can't get leads in highschool, how am I ever going to be successful?
Oh, I hate me.
For the past two nights I have dreamt about this play. I dreamnt I saw the cast list...
Aurelia... me
Constance... Halley
Josaphine... Natasha
Gabrielle.... Angel
Irma......... Tamara
Ugh... This is killing me.. my heart is already breaking b/c I just know it won't be me. God how long to finally see my name at the top of a list. I hate myself... I'm so stuck up and concieded. But, I just.... I don't know. I don't know what I'll do. I'll be devastated, and probably have to just move on.. I mean, If I can't get leads in highschool, how am I ever going to be successful?
Oh, I hate me.