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I'm such a good actress. Acting like I'm actually happy in my own skin. I just can't always be the rock. I'm a little girl who seems to everyone to be the grown up. I just want contact. I am so alone right now. With out my mother I would have been so lost in my life. I . am so self absorbed at the same time. I am so sick, so sick of my plate. So sick of type casting. So sick of being overlooked and forgotton. I am good goddammit, and I refuse to believe otherwise. I won't let all of your connections and supporters and fakers let you get me down.. I fucking hate the goddamn media. I fucking hate people. I fucking hate everything. My life is driven by hate sometimes it seems. I wish. I wish. I wish. You're not better than me. No one is. But, I'm not better than you either. Some one just place try. Please. Why don't you care? Why do you ignore this? I am special goddammit. Fuck you too.