"...she drinks herself up and out of her kitchen chair, and she dances out of time..."
The only things that consistently helps me feel better when I feel bad is music. Singing and guitar and whatever. Ironically this was what I wanted to do with my life up until I was like 15 and realized something like psychology would be way easier. I've recently decided that whatever major I decide on, I'm going to do at least a few classes for music/voice, and possibly minor in it. I need to, I think. I also want to take some art classes if it's at all possible. I'm not good at drawing, I'm only good at making it seem like I'm good at it. So I want to get actually good at it and have something to show for all the time I spend by myself in my room.
People look so happy when they're onstage. All the time. No matter who they are, if someone is playing music onstage in front of people they're pretty much always looking very very happy. I want this. I don't know when exactly or why exactly I decided I didn't anymore, but I do.
Crushinnnn. I don't know what to do. He already knows and nothing happened and nothing will, but I can't let it go.
I can't wait to grow up.
People look so happy when they're onstage. All the time. No matter who they are, if someone is playing music onstage in front of people they're pretty much always looking very very happy. I want this. I don't know when exactly or why exactly I decided I didn't anymore, but I do.
Crushinnnn. I don't know what to do. He already knows and nothing happened and nothing will, but I can't let it go.
I can't wait to grow up.