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i went to conyers last night and spent time with ryan. it was well worth it and not bad at all. we have the strangest relationship. strictly platonic now, of course... and i think its only getting better. ryan is seriously an amazing guy and i love him so much. not being together is different, but its turning out to be really positive. so is everything else. always the positive. because we were in love (and still are, just waiting for it to go away) we have a much stronger relationship. its more important. im so different than i was this time last year. even over the summer. only a couple have really aknowledged how much ive changed but it doesnt matter. its for me before anyone else. and im totally happy. things are awesome. i just need to mop my floor and finish decorating my room. a friend of a friend is going to paint a tree on my wall as soon as i paint the base color. that needs to happen soon. then shannon and i will redecorate the living room and it will no longer be a traditional living room. maybe ill shower today.