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i'm so annoyed right now i just wanna live my life how i wanna live it. i try to avoid drama but people take things the wrong way and get hurt or defensive and blow it all up. why can't people understand that I just wanna live my life without worries? everyone always bothers me, I DON'T CARE..about anyone, if i'm a bitch cause i'm not interested, don't get mad at me cause you're not my type and we don't have a connection. shut up.
my life has been going by so fast. i wonder if i'll ever get a chance to catch my breath. i've lived for all the weekends except 420 sucked...blew almost $200 on clothes and parents bought me a new camera. i was too high to really give a shit about tht and rach throwing up nonstop. but i quit smoking weed on 420 for the rest of my life!
last weekend, carnival, hotel party at the hilton..party started at 2am..nonstop drinking hypnotiq was my favoritee, meeting new people, falling on my ass in the bathroom, rach's the only one i know who will hold my hair while i'm throwing up and not get grossed out..."its ok, its ok, you're not gonna throw up...okay you just threw up.." , boy getting mad @ me cause i wasn't "motivation" so he passed out, "i'm too drunk to do anythinggg!", staying up with someone i just met til i kicked him off sleeping on me cause he was suffocating me and taking all the room and we passed at aorund 8/9am..agreed to pull an all nighter..we were the last ones to pass out, "i can't pee" and "one minute man" stories, wiping spilled blood means enjoyment, me: "fuck people who pass out".."FUCK people?"..."noooo! not that kind of fuck!", he was gonna rap for me, "give me something to rap about!", made jokes, talked too much and didn't make sense, wiping shit on each other and blowing things up, nonexistent lapdances, "do you have a dragon...cause you're asian...so you must have a dragon...", feeling sick so i said iw as gonna die and told everyone to tell my family that i love them, drinking more after i throw up, ice fights, thinking gatorade powder was cocaine, making a mess, you can tell a lot about a guy if he just flirts with you and doesn't try to get any further the night you guys just meet, i'm doing it all over again this weekend.
i love my life and i just wanna have fun. whoever gets hurt in the way, i'm sorry but i don't care. you leave as soon as you get what you want. people should stop calling me, get the hint if i dont pick up my phone after the 2nd call..one certain annoying guy needs to respect that i just got out of a relationship and i dont want anything..just having fun and living my life how i want to. i swear they're coming out of nowhere. new things, new experiences. why hasn't my life been like this before? don't judge me if you don't like what i'm doing. i'm having fun and i'm not (intentionally) hurting anyone so calm down. i'm doign what i haven't done in forever. i missed it. i'm sorry it went ayway.
rach is my sidekcik, everything that happenes to me happanes to her. i dont care if this doesnt make sense cause it makes sense to me..throwing a cinco de mayo party on friday because because because..i get interested in things i can't have and when i get it, i dont want it anymore. i always end up in bad situations but 5 years from now i'll be laughing and think, "what was i thinking?" i hope to God this goes somewhere, but i'm not gonan think too much about it. other than that, me and rachel made an agreement and in 3 years, we're moving to san franciso! i'll be done with 4 years worht of college and going to graduate school somewhere there.
i'm about to get a new phone/number thank God i hate everyone calling me. i wish i could block everyone's number except the ones closest to me. i hate old best friends who try to be friends again. leave me alone.
life is experincing, it's not doing the same shit over and over again. my life's so damn good right now and i swear if anyone takes the "fun" out of my life again..well..you know.
my life has been going by so fast. i wonder if i'll ever get a chance to catch my breath. i've lived for all the weekends except 420 sucked...blew almost $200 on clothes and parents bought me a new camera. i was too high to really give a shit about tht and rach throwing up nonstop. but i quit smoking weed on 420 for the rest of my life!
last weekend, carnival, hotel party at the hilton..party started at 2am..nonstop drinking hypnotiq was my favoritee, meeting new people, falling on my ass in the bathroom, rach's the only one i know who will hold my hair while i'm throwing up and not get grossed out..."its ok, its ok, you're not gonna throw up...okay you just threw up.." , boy getting mad @ me cause i wasn't "motivation" so he passed out, "i'm too drunk to do anythinggg!", staying up with someone i just met til i kicked him off sleeping on me cause he was suffocating me and taking all the room and we passed at aorund 8/9am..agreed to pull an all nighter..we were the last ones to pass out, "i can't pee" and "one minute man" stories, wiping spilled blood means enjoyment, me: "fuck people who pass out".."FUCK people?"..."noooo! not that kind of fuck!", he was gonna rap for me, "give me something to rap about!", made jokes, talked too much and didn't make sense, wiping shit on each other and blowing things up, nonexistent lapdances, "do you have a dragon...cause you're asian...so you must have a dragon...", feeling sick so i said iw as gonna die and told everyone to tell my family that i love them, drinking more after i throw up, ice fights, thinking gatorade powder was cocaine, making a mess, you can tell a lot about a guy if he just flirts with you and doesn't try to get any further the night you guys just meet, i'm doing it all over again this weekend.
i love my life and i just wanna have fun. whoever gets hurt in the way, i'm sorry but i don't care. you leave as soon as you get what you want. people should stop calling me, get the hint if i dont pick up my phone after the 2nd call..one certain annoying guy needs to respect that i just got out of a relationship and i dont want anything..just having fun and living my life how i want to. i swear they're coming out of nowhere. new things, new experiences. why hasn't my life been like this before? don't judge me if you don't like what i'm doing. i'm having fun and i'm not (intentionally) hurting anyone so calm down. i'm doign what i haven't done in forever. i missed it. i'm sorry it went ayway.
rach is my sidekcik, everything that happenes to me happanes to her. i dont care if this doesnt make sense cause it makes sense to me..throwing a cinco de mayo party on friday because because because..i get interested in things i can't have and when i get it, i dont want it anymore. i always end up in bad situations but 5 years from now i'll be laughing and think, "what was i thinking?" i hope to God this goes somewhere, but i'm not gonan think too much about it. other than that, me and rachel made an agreement and in 3 years, we're moving to san franciso! i'll be done with 4 years worht of college and going to graduate school somewhere there.
i'm about to get a new phone/number thank God i hate everyone calling me. i wish i could block everyone's number except the ones closest to me. i hate old best friends who try to be friends again. leave me alone.
life is experincing, it's not doing the same shit over and over again. my life's so damn good right now and i swear if anyone takes the "fun" out of my life again..well..you know.