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[iwillfindmyway]

i set myself up for this
for the pain
the failure
i knew it was happening
i knew i was falling on my face
i knew that things were wrong
that they were slipping
and i never said a word
i never once tried to tell you
none of you
i know you dont care
i know you dont really care
that the only reason you are here
is to make yourself feel good
i dont believe you
i dont trust you
i dont want to
because once i do
things will change
the carpet will be ripped out from under me
and i will fall to my knees
i will be alone
in the position that implies faith
the position that suggests loyalty
to the King of Creation
to the Almighty
the One who is watching out
for each and every one of us
then why am i so alone
why do i feel like no one can help me
because i am alone
im alone with my thoughts
and they leave little room for much else
so i will sit here
on my knees
in front of the whole world
and be alone
alone with my thoughts
alone with my suspisions
and my scars
alone
all alone