lately..
Have you ever felt like you were someone else looking in on your life from the outside? Like an over-protective mother watching her child behind a huge glass wall, I am left helpless and have no control over what may happen. I seem to be going through the motions with ease. I'm attending school, I'm doing my homework, I haven't been late to work for a while, and I make sure to smile and ask how all my friends are doing. It just seems like things haven't been right and I don't know what to do in order to remedy the problem. I'm not even sure what the problem is exactly. I just feel like an empty vessel going through the daily tasks laid before me with no emotion, excitement, enjoyment, or disappointment. If i could make one general motion of the way i feel towards life in general, it would a big shrug with hands thrown up in the air. What can you do but continue on the path you have made. I guess this is the beautiful life we all hear about but never really get a chance to experience. So i'll just stay perched on my window and watch.