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like before, i only use this in certain cases, and this is one. i am the type of person that does everything to extremes. and getting fucked up is one. i think i have an actual problem. i drink way to much. really. it took seeing shorty as out of hand as he was tonight and riding away in a cop car covered in his own blood and in his underwear to make me realize that. he was drunk and tried to fight his dad and i had to wrestle and fight him for an hour to subdue him so he didn't fight his dad. seeing how hurt his parents were, made me realize i have done that in a different way to mine. i don't fight or argue, but i blatently do the exact oposite of what they want me to do. for no reason. they love me and do everything in the world for me.for most of us middle class teenagers we bitch and moan about our parents and the things they do that we don't agree with. yeah, no parents are perfect, but they are alot closer and more knowledgable than us. i'm not saying i will become the perfect child, but a change needs to happen. i can't continually pull this shit. i mean, no-one does this. except for bands who eventually go in and out of rehab and end up on behind the music. i can't wait for tommorrow. it's a new day, and a new start, for me. hopefully shorty gets that oppurtunity.