Make it stop.

[iwearpinkchucks]

Have you ever been so confused and just overloaded with thoughts and feelings? I am. And I am tired of it. Ever since I was little I have gone though spouts of "bad feelings" is what I called it. I get scared and nervous and just filled with anxiety. I have been going through this since i was like, eight. I still do it. Why? I get shaky and uncomfortable and think things that aren't true. And I get worried that I am becoming something that I don't want to be. Something that makes me sick to my stomach. I pray that this goes away at some point in my life. That I don't act on feeling or thoughts that I know and hope are just that. I feel like I need and exorcism or something. I want peace in my life. I want a completeness. I have it sometimes, when I am at church or when I pray with someone like my dad. But it isn't ALWAYS there. But these thoughts and feelings are. Almost always. I wish they would go away. I pray that they do. Maybe it is a youth thing. Something that you go through as a child and teen until you are grown up and figure yourself out. Maybe I am going through some phase that I can grow out of. I beg God to make this go away. Give me a peace that will last me the rest of my life and rid me of these terrible thoughts and feelings of anxiety. Please, God.

If any Christians are reading this or even anyone else, pray to make this go away. I don't want this to ruin my life or control it. I am 16 and I want to be happy. I want to feel good and not be confused or scared. Make it go away. Please. I've prayed my whole life about it. Maybe if someone else does it will go away.