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Mental notes about eating alone:
People look at you oddly, with a certain pity, wishing you'd get up and let their group have the table.
People you never associate with and barely know come up and talk to you because you probably look lonely, but forced conversation makes you feel worse about yourself.
There is something liberating in thought and action to be able to select what foods and what conversations you have with only yourself.
Sara A is a good friend and good person, and maybe I shouldn't judge her so harshly at times.
Some close friends may overlook you in the presence of their boyfriend, pretending not to see you.
Alone eating allows for internet access and work, but sitting by windows is cold.
Chocolate pecan pie is the best.
I'm thirsty.
I eat earlier, when I want.
I can eat foods that give me weird breath and not worry about it.
Side notes about my life:
Not into school, not into home. A life long bus trip minus the nausea and pollution sounds excellent.
Not doing something makes when you do it all the more better. In terms of all things.
Sleep is needed more than I have time to allow it.
Not overly happy, not overly sad.
Rebecca is great.
So are Sarah, Sharon, Rach, Sean, Carly, Shirtless Tim from down the hall, Mike, and ice cream.
I'd rather be writing and thinking than most things, including contact with humans.
I'm an FNJP or whatever. maybe.
Not quite understanding the purpose of life, still.
People look at you oddly, with a certain pity, wishing you'd get up and let their group have the table.
People you never associate with and barely know come up and talk to you because you probably look lonely, but forced conversation makes you feel worse about yourself.
There is something liberating in thought and action to be able to select what foods and what conversations you have with only yourself.
Sara A is a good friend and good person, and maybe I shouldn't judge her so harshly at times.
Some close friends may overlook you in the presence of their boyfriend, pretending not to see you.
Alone eating allows for internet access and work, but sitting by windows is cold.
Chocolate pecan pie is the best.
I'm thirsty.
I eat earlier, when I want.
I can eat foods that give me weird breath and not worry about it.
Side notes about my life:
Not into school, not into home. A life long bus trip minus the nausea and pollution sounds excellent.
Not doing something makes when you do it all the more better. In terms of all things.
Sleep is needed more than I have time to allow it.
Not overly happy, not overly sad.
Rebecca is great.
So are Sarah, Sharon, Rach, Sean, Carly, Shirtless Tim from down the hall, Mike, and ice cream.
I'd rather be writing and thinking than most things, including contact with humans.
I'm an FNJP or whatever. maybe.
Not quite understanding the purpose of life, still.