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I guess I'm feeling like I need to write a lot today. I don't think I've ever once written in my lj twice in one day.
I'm just feeling so weird. How could this happen? I felt like I had someone who was so perfect for me.....so perfect....and now I know he's not and I'm lusting after someone who will NEVER be perfect for me at all. So opposite from perfect. Maybe it's better that way? He's so wrong for me, though. He'll never be what I need. I don't think I could ever be what he needs either. But I've been lusting over him for so long.......and I don't know if it's just physical attraction either. I know it's mostly physical, though. This time that's okay with me. He knows exactly what I want and I know exactly what he wants....now I'm somewhat contradicting myself. But God...we were stoned....it didn't mean anything.....it wasn't supposed to.....
I'm just feeling so weird. How could this happen? I felt like I had someone who was so perfect for me.....so perfect....and now I know he's not and I'm lusting after someone who will NEVER be perfect for me at all. So opposite from perfect. Maybe it's better that way? He's so wrong for me, though. He'll never be what I need. I don't think I could ever be what he needs either. But I've been lusting over him for so long.......and I don't know if it's just physical attraction either. I know it's mostly physical, though. This time that's okay with me. He knows exactly what I want and I know exactly what he wants....now I'm somewhat contradicting myself. But God...we were stoned....it didn't mean anything.....it wasn't supposed to.....