Man do I wish I was beautiful
Today has been interesting so far. I woke up at 11:30, something that I seem to do a lot lately. I guess I need the sleep. I hope I'm not growing, I'm pretty sure that I'm done, and I'm happy with my body.
It's too hot again. I feel like I can't breath. I hate it that they don't let me wear tank tops to work, such bull.
At least it's air conditioned, so it doesn't really matter I guess. But I'm wearing what I'm going to wear to work right now even though I don't have to be there until 5:00.
I feel so incredibly ugly today. Could I get any worse? Ugh. I'm sick of looking this way. But I don't know if there's anything I can really do about it....*sigh*. I'm just me, that's just how it is.
But other than being ugly, I am doing quite well. I wrote Micah a really long sappy birthday card today. I hope he likes it. I love him so much. Going to the movies with him last night just got me thinking so much about when we first met when we were both so young and innocent, I wanna go back to that so badly sometimes. I don't wanna fucking grow up.
School starts soon. Not something that I am looking forward to. I'm going to get so busy, I'm going to miss James.
I'm not gonna see him for a couple of weeks now because I'm going to my family reunion next week and then he's leaving for NC for a week. I think it'll be good for me because it'll give me the motivation to do things on my own....like by myself. And hopefully hang out with some friends that I haven't hung out with in a really long time. Yes, now is the time for that. I'm gonna hang out with Trav and Micah and possibly Jessie. Wow I haven't connected with them in a long time. I miss my homeschooled buddies. I kind of abandoned them.......
Life is so beautiful. I feel so grounded right now. Like I might actually know who I am.....
It's too hot again. I feel like I can't breath. I hate it that they don't let me wear tank tops to work, such bull.
At least it's air conditioned, so it doesn't really matter I guess. But I'm wearing what I'm going to wear to work right now even though I don't have to be there until 5:00.
I feel so incredibly ugly today. Could I get any worse? Ugh. I'm sick of looking this way. But I don't know if there's anything I can really do about it....*sigh*. I'm just me, that's just how it is.
But other than being ugly, I am doing quite well. I wrote Micah a really long sappy birthday card today. I hope he likes it. I love him so much. Going to the movies with him last night just got me thinking so much about when we first met when we were both so young and innocent, I wanna go back to that so badly sometimes. I don't wanna fucking grow up.
School starts soon. Not something that I am looking forward to. I'm going to get so busy, I'm going to miss James.
I'm not gonna see him for a couple of weeks now because I'm going to my family reunion next week and then he's leaving for NC for a week. I think it'll be good for me because it'll give me the motivation to do things on my own....like by myself. And hopefully hang out with some friends that I haven't hung out with in a really long time. Yes, now is the time for that. I'm gonna hang out with Trav and Micah and possibly Jessie. Wow I haven't connected with them in a long time. I miss my homeschooled buddies. I kind of abandoned them.......
Life is so beautiful. I feel so grounded right now. Like I might actually know who I am.....