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It's strange being back home, to say the least. Every time I come back to this place everything is a bit less familiar and the details in all my friends' faces have changed a bit more, some of them I honestly don't recognize much at all. The streets are backwards, and there's so much space between where I stand and where 'home', in its figurative definition, really is. If 'home' is the place where you feel most welcome and comfortable, then I am so far away right now I don't know what to do with myself. I'm going back on Sunday, or perhaps Monday, but then again I'm sad for that too. When I come back here, I expect this grand reunion between myself and my childhood and all the people in it....but it never happens that way. My old friends are out living their different, new lives and I'm just dying to get back to mine....and it's my discovery that you can't just pick up where you left off a week before high school graduation under such altered circumstances, no matter how much you swore to yourself that things wouldn't change, and this place would always be lit up and memory-bound with everything you've gone through here. It's saddening. A part of me has died. Things and people that used to capture me just make me sleepy and homesick now.
But I like seeing my Mom everyday again. I was clawing at the walls to get out of this house a year ago. :cP She did the grocery shopping and some of my laundry and cooked me some kickass spaghetti. SO MONEY. I miss not having to do all that shit.
Eh, I was going to go on about the last couple weeks of the semester and what crazy shit went down, but I'm kind of tired so I'll write it tomorrow. It's been a long time since I've written something on here, damn. Anyway I hope you all are well and safe.
<3 livi
But I like seeing my Mom everyday again. I was clawing at the walls to get out of this house a year ago. :cP She did the grocery shopping and some of my laundry and cooked me some kickass spaghetti. SO MONEY. I miss not having to do all that shit.
Eh, I was going to go on about the last couple weeks of the semester and what crazy shit went down, but I'm kind of tired so I'll write it tomorrow. It's been a long time since I've written something on here, damn. Anyway I hope you all are well and safe.
<3 livi