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well i think i finally did it. i think i killed all of my reasoning brain cells. i havent smoked at all today but i am feeling very...odd... i fell lost but not in a bad place its new. im just listening to music and evry chord or mote seems to bring me closer to inner peace. the loud twang of an electric guitar or the gentle steady bass. the way it all blends together to make the perfect song is amazing. i also fell extremly paranoid i was sitting in a parking lot and i felt like everyone was out to get me at first i thought it was scary then i didnt care and now it doesnt matter if they all were staring at me. for the first time in awhile i fell completely at piece with everything and not just the things i cope with. all the things in the world i have found the meaning of life and now its seeping through my fingers. but even losing the meaning of life id ok because i had it and thats all that matters.