Gotta Find A Way To Be Okay... Girl Knock Youself Out...
I mess things up all the time, and i dont even know what i do. if i did i would obviously change it, but it feels like as soon as everything is going great i get this weird feeling in my stomach where i dont like it.
i have just been feeling like the third wheel eveywhere i go... even if its with couples, friends, family... for example my dad last night thanked my sister for going to lewis black and forgot that iw as there, and almost drove off without me... its an innocent mistake, but its just an example of these events that make me feel a hundred times worse then they do.
but things were going great. i've had a blast this fall break... i've hung out with friends and chilled, and have had alot of fun. but i need to talk about things to people when they happen instead of waiting for an innocent moment, and then saying it. thats what i did this break was made a comment that i think had hurt a really good friendship of mine... i just cant stand this feeling anymore. its been a few days since i've talked to this person, but i dont know what to say.
i never do... i just get that akward feeling again... and what ever i say comes out wrong... and i am not the type of person that likes drama or anything, hoenstly. when drama occurs a just find myself hiding. theres not really drama going on, but i need to face things before it gets worse.
i dont think this entry made any sense.
at all...
but honestly, things are going well... fall is just so beautiful that you cant help but smile. this has not been a bad fall break at all.
i have just been feeling like the third wheel eveywhere i go... even if its with couples, friends, family... for example my dad last night thanked my sister for going to lewis black and forgot that iw as there, and almost drove off without me... its an innocent mistake, but its just an example of these events that make me feel a hundred times worse then they do.
but things were going great. i've had a blast this fall break... i've hung out with friends and chilled, and have had alot of fun. but i need to talk about things to people when they happen instead of waiting for an innocent moment, and then saying it. thats what i did this break was made a comment that i think had hurt a really good friendship of mine... i just cant stand this feeling anymore. its been a few days since i've talked to this person, but i dont know what to say.
i never do... i just get that akward feeling again... and what ever i say comes out wrong... and i am not the type of person that likes drama or anything, hoenstly. when drama occurs a just find myself hiding. theres not really drama going on, but i need to face things before it gets worse.
i dont think this entry made any sense.
at all...
but honestly, things are going well... fall is just so beautiful that you cant help but smile. this has not been a bad fall break at all.