is this all...
completly did everything possible wrong. i feel so awful.i can't even believe i have the strength to write this.i ended the realtionship with my best friend &her x/boyfriend.i feel like i have lost something so special to me.i cant even began to explain how sorry i am.i know now , that i am the worst person in the world..or at least i feel like.i know that you hate me more than anything, you just dont want to tell me.you called me, &we just sat there crying.im sorry for everything i have ever done to you.you are my best friend &i cant not have you in my life.your so special to me, &you know it.i didnt mean for things to end up like this.i wish you could understand.
my relationship with my boyfriend,is not so well.almost got to the point where it was over.i dont understand why everything cant be perfect.all im doing is sitting here crying my eyes out.i am the biggest fucking asshole in the world.i cant write anymore.
Nothing will be the same anymore.