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Dec 01, 2006 15:41

I don't know the last time I posted in here. I've been using my myspace alot but don't want to neglect LJ because it is more private and personal. Anyway life keeps changing drastically. Curt decided to devoirce Kathy. I wrote a bunch about it on myspace. When I have time I will add it to livejournal. Thanksgiving was crazy. Last sunday my dad came over and we walked Ivy and played chess. That was cool except that he seems so callious about my moms feelings and cares more about the dog than her. It was good to see him except the whole time my mom was in the kitchen cooking and trying to stiffle sobs. She ended up going into the living room and screaming at him, saying that she hated him so much she wanted to scratch out his face with her nails, but maybe in a few years she her intense seething hate would fade into just not giving a rats ass about what happened to him, and that maybe in a few years after that sahe would read about his death in the paper and just say, geeze, i really hated that fucker. All that was really hard for me to hear and throughout his visit I would just start crying. Curt ended up leaving as Kathy chucked a shoe at him. My sister and I ran off to the store and got my mom a card and some chocolate. She liked them. The card I picked out had godzilla breaking buildings and I chose it instead of the sad cat card because I figured Kathy felt more like godzilla than a wet cat. After getting back. Laura and myself took my mom to the movie, Borat. She said she really liked it, which is good, but i think the most important thing we did was get her out of the house and back in public. When I turn 21 I am going to take her to bars with me.

Thanksgiving was also shitty because Alex started being really wierd and moody. It took him a week to get over it. He got in a huge fight about mexican food with Bonny, and it wasn't even something that needed to be fought over. It was just about the names and tacobell. Later that night he calmed down but it took him some time. While he was gone, Bonny Laura and I cleaned up the gray room so now the pool table is clear. it felt good throwing away a bunch of curts stuff. Anyway, Alex was just being really wierd. I would be super nice, like helping put up a new mail box for my mom, which bonny also did, then he would freak out and get mad over little things and he was really confrontational. He stopped being like that sometime this week after I had a bawling phone conversation with him about how my world is falling apart and he is the last thing I need to go wrong. After an hour of me sobbing he seemed to get it and now he is very nice.

School is crap for the most part. I feel like shit because I haven't been to class pretty much since monday of thanksgiving. I left early, came back late, have been sick, ect. I haven't been to my math class since that monday and I keep sleeping through it. I have the number of a girl in the class. She is really nice so I am hoping she can catch me up for the final. It really pissed me off that I slept through that class today. I have really been trying to go to it but this time my alarm was set for 8 pm instead of 8 am. I am just retarded. I am hoping to get a solid B in the class but it doesn't look like that will be easy if I can't even make it to one of the classes this week. Now there are no more classes and I am screwed. Maybe Josef can help me study and teach me, he's good at that crap.

In Eugene things have been okay I guess. I have been hanging out with Reese alot more, and Jen a bit. On wesnesday, we all hung out. The day before was his 21st birthday. We ended up just drinking and smoking at his place and I ended up calling Josef over. I think he ended getting me sick, but anyway that is what we did. Early Reese had asked Jen if her parents were together and she said yes, and then continued to go on and on about divorce and how she was so lucky, her parents weren't going to split, and finally started listing off everyone she knew who had divorced parents. It made me really depressed and after crying in the bathroom a little, where I could still hear her, i went outside and smoked and called alex. That made me feel better and I should have just dropped it but right before she was leaving I told her she had offended me talking about divorce and going on about how lucky she was, and that I would appreciate it if she didn't talk about it. i was drunk so i don't know how well it came out. She got defensive and I think I hurt her feelings, or made her think that I thought she ment to hurt me. She left in a huff, and now I feel bad. We have never had anything close to a fight in the 3 year history we have. I'm sure it is fine though, we are suppose to hang out tonight, and I will talk to her about it then.

Grr I have to cook, and this entry is illegiable stream of conciousness writing.
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