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damn! i don't know what to do! i'm exploding with faggotry..
so theres this dude.
who used to pay attention to me,
but for some reason when we saw each other it was always awkward.
i don't know why, cos we got along so damn well.
and i felt really close to him, even though we never really got to know each other well.
i guess i kind of let it go? cos it wasn't going anywhere? i never thought i did, but maybe i gave off the impression that i didn't give a damn. i think i was just trying to look cool. ugh.
cos outta nowhere i realize i, like, ADORE this person.
and there is nothing that i want to do more than try to forget about awkwardness and spend as much time as it takes to break the worthless ice that hasn't melted in the past, what, 10months that we've been playing this hopeless game.
but he doesn't pay attention to me anymore.
so now i find myself saying and doing the stupidest things to the worst people hoping that it would make a difference.
but the glacier is only building. where did i go wrong?
DAMMIT LUCIE
so theres this dude.
who used to pay attention to me,
but for some reason when we saw each other it was always awkward.
i don't know why, cos we got along so damn well.
and i felt really close to him, even though we never really got to know each other well.
i guess i kind of let it go? cos it wasn't going anywhere? i never thought i did, but maybe i gave off the impression that i didn't give a damn. i think i was just trying to look cool. ugh.
cos outta nowhere i realize i, like, ADORE this person.
and there is nothing that i want to do more than try to forget about awkwardness and spend as much time as it takes to break the worthless ice that hasn't melted in the past, what, 10months that we've been playing this hopeless game.
but he doesn't pay attention to me anymore.
so now i find myself saying and doing the stupidest things to the worst people hoping that it would make a difference.
but the glacier is only building. where did i go wrong?
DAMMIT LUCIE