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I am attempting to study for my Chinese and Japanese philosophy and religion class.
It seems rather ironic to be sitting around trying to memorize Buddhist teachings.
It doesn't seem reasonable to think that I, a lowly un-awakened white girl can understand these things in a few short weeks.
So as I was sitting here staring at my notes and drinking a fine brew of Vanilla Chai tea, I decided to turn around and stare at the wall.
Turns out, this was a great idea.
Thank you, Nacho Libre. I think I will take your advice tomorrow and summon my eagle powers.
If there is a God, he will be scaling the grades.
Otherwise, I am fucked.
I have not been sleeping well lately.
It seems that, everytime my head touches the pillow, I start thinking about my dad.
And about all the things we never got to talk about.
We ought to allow ourselves the luxury of admitting that some things are pretty painful in life.
I don't know why I haven't allowed myself to say it out loud in the months that have come to pass.
I am so close to the end of this degree.
But all I can think about is what I want to knit next.
And all the books I want to read for fun.
And blades of green grass between my toes.
I'm pretty lucky because soon I will enjoy all those things.
Pretty lucky indeed.
It seems rather ironic to be sitting around trying to memorize Buddhist teachings.
It doesn't seem reasonable to think that I, a lowly un-awakened white girl can understand these things in a few short weeks.
So as I was sitting here staring at my notes and drinking a fine brew of Vanilla Chai tea, I decided to turn around and stare at the wall.
Turns out, this was a great idea.
Thank you, Nacho Libre. I think I will take your advice tomorrow and summon my eagle powers.
If there is a God, he will be scaling the grades.
Otherwise, I am fucked.
I have not been sleeping well lately.
It seems that, everytime my head touches the pillow, I start thinking about my dad.
And about all the things we never got to talk about.
We ought to allow ourselves the luxury of admitting that some things are pretty painful in life.
I don't know why I haven't allowed myself to say it out loud in the months that have come to pass.
I am so close to the end of this degree.
But all I can think about is what I want to knit next.
And all the books I want to read for fun.
And blades of green grass between my toes.
I'm pretty lucky because soon I will enjoy all those things.
Pretty lucky indeed.