Recently...
I really don't know what to write I just feel like letting people who check my pulse through my updates know that I"m alive so much is on my mind but a livejournal rant/scream would not be the best way to deal with it at all. Like emily said it's like everyone is a peice of glass heating all day and then when night comes it drenches it like cold water causing it to explode yet for me I don't heat up I just get doused with cold water and watch everyone else explode around me It's really frusterating. But I go to Miami friday which should be great I look forward to meeting new people and having a little bit of an escape although a pivital issue is following me there. I am really interested to see how this summer goes. I also am going to europe on the 8th and get back the 22nd. Everything is very strange lately I really feel like re reading the snarkout boys and the avacado of death. I had a great conversation in a parking lot last night. two people who fascinate me were there. The picture/portrait of dorian grey came up and emily hadn't read it I happened to have it in my car I was intending on giving it to ashley for obvious reasons but since emily hadn't read it it came up and was there I gave it to her I may buy another copy to give to ashley. I also told my three companions in the parking lot something I had never told anyone before except a brief vague reference to it once, that startled me it came out with ease and made me remember some other bad things and I got sad. I want to know where I'm going right now I bought some new clothes I can't decide if I like them I normally like clothes I but in the store and then not when I get home hang them up and find them later and like them again. I died part of my hair also I think I like it. I also got it cut but a few peices were neglected that needs to be rectified ashley says before I go to miami. I also started my summer training fun I need a job also but I don't know what to do. what I want more than anything right now is to fall asleep with someone.
