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well theres been a lot going on and i ahvent really updated this in awhile...i wonder why. hmmm maybe because im always out and never at home and then when i get home i dont want to do anything but sleep. sleep is good. i wish i could sleep more often. but yeah anyone who has my cell number. its wrong. i got a new phone yesturday...its awesomee...hehehe well yeah hm... last weekend was really fucked up. i felt like dying last sunday. blahness. i wanted to get a knife and stab it through my heart...but luckily there were no knives around me. well i dont know what im going to do about school. im failing i dont know how many classes (chem. of course.) and i just dont care enough to do any work. i get home from school, well not actually home i go to jasons or britanys or chelseas, and i chill with friends, smoke drink. then come home fucked up everyday and i just dont feel like doing anything i mean who would want to do anything after a long day like that. man yesturday night was fucked up. i go home because i actually want to and then i expect my mom and brother to be there but theyre not. so i keep calling everyone but no one answers. and it sucks because i had a really long day yesturday and all i wanted to do was sleep. so i climb the balcony and i go to sleep on the cold pavement. but then it gets worse. im there for about an hour and im like "fuck this shit im going to go get my key" okay so i dont actually go get it i call jason and brit to see if they can pick up my backpack at brits house and bring it over to me. so they bring it over but the gates in the front are locked so they cant really get in. so i have to go over to the exit part and wait for them there and i get into the van...WAIT! i forgot an even worse detail...there was a letter on my door from my mom telling me that she changed the locks so my key wouldnt even work...fuckin great right? so i had to go with jason and everyone(chelsea, kc, matt, cheri, and brit) to drop off matt, and go to heb till my mom actually called me. so we go...blah blah blah...drop off matt...blah blah blah...and then go to heb and then on the way back my mom calls me and says im in trouble for not being home...WHAT THE FUCK?? so yeah i tell her fuck that i was there and i couldnt get in so it was not my fuckin fault. and so i get home and i go to sleep...and thats it. lol...well yeah and then i woke up late today and came to school during 3rd period...it sucked...but yeah now im in lunch and im bored...and i have to go to world history and be bored....blah sleeeeepppppp....so im going to go. byes -Marissa-