sometimes
Sometimes I really wish I could die.
like get it over with. i dont' want to lvie sometimes. no matter how my life is going to end up. i don't care if i'll be a good writer, or if i have kids, or if my life ends up really great. my life just doesnt turn out how i want it right now. i am living my the day and sometimes my days suck. sometimes i wish i could just be at the wrong place at the wrong time and just have it end.
i know you're probably thinking this is morbid and kinda freaky, bit its how i feel. maybe you jabe felt it before, and if you havent "fuck you. you suck."
maybe i do have suidicial ideation still (doc said i had it at the hospital) i dont know maybe i need treatments and medications or maybe it'll just go away. i just wish it will go away soon im tired of bullshit and crying and people letting me down and people pissing me off and making me feel like shit.
i want to go somewhere where it doesnt matter, somewhere where im not watching what i eat or how much i eat because i dont want to gain any weight. somewhere where i dont care how i look because other people are watching, looking, and saying things, i dont want to care what i, you, or anyone thinks.
i just want to go somewhere where it all ends.
like get it over with. i dont' want to lvie sometimes. no matter how my life is going to end up. i don't care if i'll be a good writer, or if i have kids, or if my life ends up really great. my life just doesnt turn out how i want it right now. i am living my the day and sometimes my days suck. sometimes i wish i could just be at the wrong place at the wrong time and just have it end.
i know you're probably thinking this is morbid and kinda freaky, bit its how i feel. maybe you jabe felt it before, and if you havent "fuck you. you suck."
maybe i do have suidicial ideation still (doc said i had it at the hospital) i dont know maybe i need treatments and medications or maybe it'll just go away. i just wish it will go away soon im tired of bullshit and crying and people letting me down and people pissing me off and making me feel like shit.
i want to go somewhere where it doesnt matter, somewhere where im not watching what i eat or how much i eat because i dont want to gain any weight. somewhere where i dont care how i look because other people are watching, looking, and saying things, i dont want to care what i, you, or anyone thinks.
i just want to go somewhere where it all ends.