GAH!
I just do not get men. I just DON'T!
I went to Orlando this weekend with a friend of mine for his bday to see Margaret Cho and to go to Universal (I got him the annual pass for his bday). We have been friends for like 5 years and this is nothing unusal, we go to Orlando together all the time.
Well, we stayed with his cousin, and the first night there (Friday) he had a few drinks and ever since his gastric bypass surgery he gets drunk easily. Well he got buzzed and when he went up to bed (I stayed in the downstairs room) he text messages me that he loves me, again nothing unusual. Well then he texts me stuff about waking him up with a kiss and all this junk. So I jsut ignore it chalking it up to the alcohol talking. Well then Sat we are at the park all day and we have a great time, then that night we drove to Tampa for Margaret Cho. He had a few drinks again and on the way back to the car he was like trying to kiss me and stuff. So I was kind of weirded out but thinking maybe he was playing around. Wrong.
We are driving back to Orlando and he all of a sudden turns the radio off and slams his fist on the steering wheel and goes "I can't take this shit anymore!" So then I'm like "Take WHAT?" and he tells me the way he feels about me and how he doesnt know what's going on with us and how he sometimes jsut wants to jump my bones, and all this other stuff.
So I was honest with him. On occasion I will get feelings that I want to be with him because he is a great guy, and I love his family and I know I'd have a good life with him. But then I don't want to mess up our friendship because he is very improtant to me and if anything ever happend and we weren't friends anymore it would kill me, so I jsut don't think it is worth it to risk our friendship for something that we don't even know would workout and plus when I think about kissing him and stuff, it's jsut WEIRD.
So I think we have it all settled and then driving to the ale house to meet his cousins and our friend Alex he holds my hand. And then we get there he sits against the wall, which is where I ALWAYs sit at a restaurant, so I sat on the other side of the table and he was all quiet and when I asked him why he wasn't talking to me he tells me he had wanted me to sit next to him and to be afectionate with him. HELLO I first of all always sit in the corner, and second, I thought we jsut talked about this...
So then this morning it was kind of awkward and the drive home was kind of awkward though I think we are both trying to pretend nothing happened.
Sigh. I am really hoping our friendship isnt ruined now. :(
I went to Orlando this weekend with a friend of mine for his bday to see Margaret Cho and to go to Universal (I got him the annual pass for his bday). We have been friends for like 5 years and this is nothing unusal, we go to Orlando together all the time.
Well, we stayed with his cousin, and the first night there (Friday) he had a few drinks and ever since his gastric bypass surgery he gets drunk easily. Well he got buzzed and when he went up to bed (I stayed in the downstairs room) he text messages me that he loves me, again nothing unusual. Well then he texts me stuff about waking him up with a kiss and all this junk. So I jsut ignore it chalking it up to the alcohol talking. Well then Sat we are at the park all day and we have a great time, then that night we drove to Tampa for Margaret Cho. He had a few drinks again and on the way back to the car he was like trying to kiss me and stuff. So I was kind of weirded out but thinking maybe he was playing around. Wrong.
We are driving back to Orlando and he all of a sudden turns the radio off and slams his fist on the steering wheel and goes "I can't take this shit anymore!" So then I'm like "Take WHAT?" and he tells me the way he feels about me and how he doesnt know what's going on with us and how he sometimes jsut wants to jump my bones, and all this other stuff.
So I was honest with him. On occasion I will get feelings that I want to be with him because he is a great guy, and I love his family and I know I'd have a good life with him. But then I don't want to mess up our friendship because he is very improtant to me and if anything ever happend and we weren't friends anymore it would kill me, so I jsut don't think it is worth it to risk our friendship for something that we don't even know would workout and plus when I think about kissing him and stuff, it's jsut WEIRD.
So I think we have it all settled and then driving to the ale house to meet his cousins and our friend Alex he holds my hand. And then we get there he sits against the wall, which is where I ALWAYs sit at a restaurant, so I sat on the other side of the table and he was all quiet and when I asked him why he wasn't talking to me he tells me he had wanted me to sit next to him and to be afectionate with him. HELLO I first of all always sit in the corner, and second, I thought we jsut talked about this...
So then this morning it was kind of awkward and the drive home was kind of awkward though I think we are both trying to pretend nothing happened.
Sigh. I am really hoping our friendship isnt ruined now. :(