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this has been my sanity. Livejournal. so much to say, too little words to describe everything.
i just sat in the shower.. underneath the water, letting it all fall down my head and over the rest of my body. i want to cry, but i feel like i dont have any tears left and the energy to do so.
sunday.. 2 months until i turn 23...twenty-three. years. old. the age. i start feeling old.
the one person i want to be there for me, rather need them to be there for me is not. i feel like this is what it all has come down to.
grad school.. probably not an option right now anymore. (there goes my plan)
even sleep is a chore. breathing is a chore. typing here.. a chore.
my eyes are burning with tears that either won't come out or i wont let come out. not sure.
i just sat in the shower.. underneath the water, letting it all fall down my head and over the rest of my body. i want to cry, but i feel like i dont have any tears left and the energy to do so.
sunday.. 2 months until i turn 23...twenty-three. years. old. the age. i start feeling old.
the one person i want to be there for me, rather need them to be there for me is not. i feel like this is what it all has come down to.
grad school.. probably not an option right now anymore. (there goes my plan)
even sleep is a chore. breathing is a chore. typing here.. a chore.
my eyes are burning with tears that either won't come out or i wont let come out. not sure.