Party Hell
Party last night has left me feeling displaced and a bit broken. Started of slow as people didn't show until later in the evening. The music started playing, we all started dancing, I learned my ex learned how to dance, was having so much fun, and then the world started to fall apart. My ex and I were flirting and having a good time, nothing serious but fun, I started getting drunk, ex's other ex showed up and I got to stand in the middle of an awkward conversation of my ex trying to leave the party while being confronted by their ex. Me drunk. Me upset. They both leave. I spend about a half hour crying in my room alone because I'm drunk and upset at me fun being ruined, and drunk. I eventually get up, try to have fun, then join two of my three roommates in getting sick. This is fun. Mind you I only had 3 drinks, but I drank them fast I guess or party demon was out that night or something. Mingled after that a bit, everyone else seemed to have fun I guess. Passed out at some point with my contacts still in and makeup still on. Woke up dehydrated, drunk, sick, and empty. I feel alone but I don't want to be around anyone. Drunk and sick have worn off a bit. Still holding on to dehydrated and empty. I started out the night having a really good time, I really did, and then it was just sucked out of me, the rest of the night was just a daze. That makes me sad.