i hate the G word!!!

[ivyshin22]

Its always been my, ours I believe, fear to loose a loved one or someone we care for. There is no way I would want to have my brother or sister or dad to leave me. That’s really gonna be sad!!! But then, I lost my mom. Not lost like, lost. She…uhm…left. Well, I didn’t care that much tough. I mean I was too young back then when she left. And it’s been like, 14 years!!! And I’m 22 now. Then just recently my only sister and secret-keeper-and-problem-listener said she want to leave and be a missionary. And I feared like hell!!! I don’t wanna have someone leave again in my family. And so I was begging and doing every way to convince her not leave. (see how bitch I am, taking away the dream of someone just because I don’t want them leaving??) I understand that one day soon, we would have to go separate ways. She’ll get married, I’ll get married, hopefully to matsujun or oguri shun or kris Lawrence.. (ambitious frog!!! lol) and so I shouldn’t be holding unto this or her or anybody like a little brat banging fists on the floor and crying her little ass out because the mother’gonna go to the market buying diapers!! Well, blame me!! We all know goodbyes are really sad. I hate it for instance. And then just last month, a fiend of mine, really close to me, had to leave. And OMG!!! I have to cry and feel sad and alone because I got no one to talk to and laugh with to ease the stress of work anymore. Well, isn’t it great to chat with a person in the office on those times when it’s like the busiest day on earth all the time you still got a time to laugh and joke around? And why am I posting this here? This nonsense thing here? Well, that is because I had a wonderful discussion… alright, argued (rolled eyes) with my sister about me taking away her plans and dreams because of being too nosy of what she wanna do with her life. And I got a very low QA score at my work because of missing a friend who left for as far as heck, NJ. Haaa!!! If I could curse the f**king “goodbye” word in the world, I would. Hhhmmm…. Probably I won’t we need goodbye too…in some cases.
and these are my guys....



I love this guy because.. i have no idea why but he just stole my heart!!! and i'm all like, why the heck is he that gorgeous???



This is my hot fantasy!! i just think i like him and i could like him forever!!! maybe because i like the fact that he's skinny and tall and it suits him like heck, he's hot!!!



This kris lawrence. some would say he is not that good-looking but try listening to him and you'll fall for him like crazy and you'll say dang!!! he's got nice voice, really nice voice!! really like, really!!!