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Title: On the way home
Author: ivysauur
Rating: PG-14 (Swearing)
Pairing: Yunjae/Yunho and Jaejoong
Genre: Fluff, AU, Humour, Romance
Length: 2/3
Warning: Not beta'd. Also, I changed it into a three-shot. You'll see why.
Summary: He was usually sharp-tongued, rebellious and tough, but after meeting someone he
knew he would at one point of his life, he became timid, submissive (not sexually, at least) and speechless.
Only god knows why.
Part 1, Part 2, Part 3a, Part 3b Below:
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This is weird. Yunho hasn’t been at school for a few weeks. No one knew what was up, except the principle but I couldn’t get an answer out of him. He told me that he didn’t want to share Yunho’s whereabouts with other students. I didn’t even ask him where he was! I asked him if he knew what happened to the idiot. Stupid, old man.
Junsu started rubbing it in my face that I’ve started to care for Jung, which is NOT true. It’s just… I don’t know.
It’s just weird to not have someone pestering me 24/7. I’ve just grown so used to his annoying presence. I mean, he’s been popping up everywhere around me for a couple of months and then all of a sudden he’s just… no where. I guess he finally listened to me when I said to go die in a hole?
I asked Junsu if he could ask Yoochun, only because I thought maybe it was a chance for him to fix up whatever went between him and the guy, but he didn’t want to. When I asked why, he started to tear up and I just had to not push him. Hey, he’s my best friend! I couldn’t make him do something he didn’t want to do even if he implants weird ideas in my own head.
So I settled with doing nothing, really. I woke up, got dressed, walked to school with Junsu clinging on to my arm, attended class with a bunch of idiots, walked home, ate dinner, bond with my older sister and then slept. I had that feeling that I was missing something, and I damn straight knew what it was.
I did have to admit; I kind of kept my phone with me all the time and kept an eye out for Yunho at school. I kept checking my phone for any messages from the idiot or any sign of the ass walking around in all of his ugly glory. I can’t explain why. I just needed some sort of sign to make sure he was still alive and on earth and I’ll leave it at that.
I told myself I wasn’t worried or missing his presence, but it wasn’t until Changmin came up to me one day during lunch break and took a seat with me and Junsu that I kind of thought otherwise.
Junsu raised an eyebrow, but didn’t say anything and only nodded his head at him, the taller male doing the same. Changmin hasn’t done anything; he’s only laughed with Yunho, or maybe at him. I hoped he was laughing at him. He looked at me and I nodded my head as well, since Junsu made it look okay.
“Jaejoong hyung-Can I call you that?” He asked softly. I was taken aback. I’ve never heard him talk actually, and I always imagined him with a rough voice. I mean, he’s tall, kind muscly and has this evil look on his face every day so of course it was a shock!
“I… uh- I guess,” I shrugged. He grinned at me and I just wanted to squish him. Weird, right? It’s just that I never noticed his mismatched eyes when his lips turned upwards into a smile. It was cute, okay?!
“So, Jaejoong hyung, I wanted to ask you if you had any idea where Yunho is.”
I stared at him for a few good seconds before I replied, “Huh?”
I looked at Junsu who avoided my gaze and continued to eat his lunch.
Changmin gave me a funny look before repeating himself, “I said-“
“No, no I know what you said!” Did he just ask what I thought he asked?
He gave me a confused expression, “So… do you know where he is?” Both of his eyebrows were raised. He seemed to really believe where I knew where Yunho was, and it confused me. I mean, I thought we looked like we hated each other enough that we wouldn’t care where the other was. Except for now, because I want to know where the hell he is.
I shook my head in disbelief, “Shouldn’t I be asking you that?”
He laughed, “Why? Do you want to know where he is?”
I flicked him on the forehead, “What made you think I knew which hole the idiot is sitting in?”
It was silent for a few minutes, and then he nodded, “Yeah, I don’t know actually. There could be a possibility, you know?”
“You need help,” Junsu joked, and he received a light punch in the arm from the tall male.
Changmin took a bite of his lunch which reminded me of my own meal sitting right in front of me. Picking up my chopsticks, I asked unconsciously, “So… you don’t know where he is either?”
“Either? You mean you’re looking for him too?”
Before I could even answer, Junsu shoved his big, fat ass in, “Yeah. He’s been mopping around for days. I misses Yunho so much that he keeps asking me if I’ve seen him and checks his phone all the time. Surprising, isn’t it?”
“I do not!” I kicked Junsu under the table on the shin, earning myself a loud yelp of pain. I smiled in satisfaction but it didn’t last long when Changmin started to laugh uncontrollably.
I turned to Junsu and mouthed that I really hated him, but he just shrugged it off with a smile. I pouted and poked my food in front of me with a dejected sigh and whined while tapping Junsu with my feet.
“I finally see what he sees in you,” Changmin spoke softly and Junsu choked on his water. I looked up to see Changmin looking at me… tenderly? Kind-heartedly?
“Who sees what in me?” I ask and Junsu immediately stood up and dragged Changmin out if his seat and ordered me to stay put. Of course, me being confused and having no idea what was happening, I stayed back with my eyes watching them skim through the cafeteria to the other side and stood in the corner. I don’t think I’ve wanted to know something so badly (except for the reason of Yunho’s hate towards me) because Junsu pushed Changmin against the wall and started to yell with his arms outstretched. Changmin didn’t really do much but lean back against the wall and seemed to be really calm about whatever they were talking about.
My curiosity grew because it just hit me. I’ve never seen Changmin and Junsu together. Ever. He even told me himself that he’d rather lick a homeless dude’s foot than be stuck in a room with any of Yunho’s dogs. Ooooh, this is really interesting.
After watching them for a couple of minutes, they moved back to my table and took a seat. My eyes met with the dolphin and he gulped, only because I gave him that look that said ‘you-have-shit-to-explain.’
I decided to not ask any questions because said boy started to squirm in his seat with my silence, so I decided to cool the atmosphere down.
“So, Changmin, how old are you?”
I’m angry. Pissed. Furious. IRRITATED!
Why? WHY? WHY AM I THIS ANGRY? BECAUSE I COME TO SCHOOL TO FIND YUNHO SITTING IN MY SEAT WITH A GIRL SITTING ON MY TABLE AND THEY WERE PRETTY FUCKING CLOSE. TOO CLOSE. SHE WAS TOO CLOSE TO YUNHO AND I DID NOT LIKE IT!
AND I DON’T KNOW WHY I’M ANGRY EITHER!
Ugh! I don’t know who the fuck she is, but I don’t want her dirty, little ass smothered on my table! I don’t care if she’s nice! Let me just slap someone!
I threw my pillows everywhere in my room, thanking god that nothing fell over.
Deep breaths, Jaejoong. Deep, mother fucking, breaths.
Why the hell did I worry about his existence when it was obvious he went to go fuck the girl at that party he told me about ages ago? Stupid idiot! And Stupid me!
“JUNG YUNHO YOU ASS!”
“I told you that you missed him. It’s pretty obvious that you’re jealous now, as well.”
“Junsu, you’re not helping.” I groaned and lay back on the grass. We were sitting outside again. I really needed some fresh air. I just happened to walk past Yunho who had his arm around her waist. That slut.
“Do you at least now how you feel about him now?” Junsu asked softy, careful not to tick me off some more. I sighed.
“I’m not admitting anything.”
“So you’re silently admitting you like him?”
“Junsu, I swear-“
“What would you do if I kissed him?”
I bolted up and glared at him, “What the-“
“From your reaction, I already have all the answers I need.” He said with a satisfied smile and I plopped down on the grass again with another groan.
“Seriously, Jaejoong. It’s not that bad.” He tried to convince, but I flipped him off.
“Everything is bad, Junsu! He’s hurt me, pestered me, annoyed me and then leaves me behind to fuck another girl!” I yell and punch the grass beside me. I turned to look at his expression, and he seemed to be really confused.
“You’re mad at him because he’s hanging around that girl?” He asked.
“I DON’T KNOW! She’s a stupid whore! She sat on my table!”
“I think you should know that-“
“I don’t need to know anything, Junsu! Zip it!”
“But-“
“ZIP IT!”
Junsu sighed and mumbled something like “He’s gonna regret it” but I have nothing to regret. NOTHING!
Just my luck, it starts to pour rain while I’m walking home. I’ve left my umbrella at home because it didn’t look like it was going to rain. Junsu left to go to his cousin’s house and my parents are busy with work.
I swore under my breath and took shelter by the shops of the city. My cousin’s birthday is in a few days and went to buy her something, and once I left it started to rain.
It also started to get colder. Freaken bipolar weather these days! I crossed my arms, pulling the sides of my loose school cardigan seeking warmth, but the thin material really didn’t help at all. I sighed.
I stared at the road in front of me, cars speeding by ever second and illuminated by the city lights. A few people brushed pass me a little to close, but I couldn’t blame them. Seoul was busy enough without the rain. I watched the droplets of evaporated water hit the road carelessly and found the sound of rain calming.
It wasn’t until I checked the time and noticed that it started to rain lightly that I decided to move. I wanted to get out of the chilly air and into a warm house and somewhat dry clothes. Making sure my cousins present was safe and well protected and also my school bag, I got off the wall behind me and started to quickly walk home.
“Jaejoong-ah!”
My eyebrow twitched. I knew that voice too well and I did not want to deal with him right now. Of course, he didn’t know I was mad at him, so I just had to pretend I was okay so he could back off.
I slowly turned around and stared blankly at the man in front of me.
“Yes?” I asked, and he looked at my as if I said something unbelievably stupid.
“Wow, that’s all I get from you after not being around for a couple of weeks? Ah, you wound me.” He chuckled and walked closer to me. I took note of his umbrella, and decided that I should be a little nice just so I can subtly stand under it too.
I waited until he was next to me before walking. I felt like running away, but he made an effort to talk to me without the usual painful greeting that I couldn’t.
It was silent as we walked passed two blocks before he spoke again, “Did you miss me?”
I scoffed, “Why would I?”
Yunho didn’t say anything, but instead just hummed and continued walking. I didn’t really mind the silence, but I couldn’t bear it either.
“Did you have fun with your girlfriend or something?” Was that my voice? Oh my Jesus, what the hell is wrong with me?
I looked at Yunho who must’ve been shocked because his eyes widened and he stared at me weirdly. Was he that shy about his girlfriend? What a child. Why do I even care?
“Who said I had a girlfriend?” his voice was kind of shaky and full of disbelief. I raised an eyebrow, “I don’t know you’ve been prancing around the school with a girl glued to your hip.” Or crotch. No, I haven’t seen her sitting in his lap, but she must’ve been.
“And she even had the decency to sit on my table and you guys have been too close to my liki-everybody’s liking. So really, if you put it all together…”
Not even a second later, Yunho burst out in to laughter while I kept walking beside him, looking at him in confusion. Did I do something wrong?
“Oh my god, Jaejoong! It’s… it’s… HAHAHAHA!” He kept laughing at me and I pouted. Everyone always laughs at me these pass few days and it’s kind of pissing me off. Humph.
“Are you done laughing at me?” I asked after a couple of minutes, and sped up a bit in my walking. He easily caught up and I could still hear him chuckle beside me. I noticed the rain stopped and asked him to close the umbrella. No point keeping it opened, really.
“She’s not my girlfriend, Jaejoong,” Yunho clarified and I rolled my eyes, “Yes, and I’m not a boy.”
“Jaejoong, seriously. She’s my cousin’s best friend and she just moved here. She’s unbelievably shy and it was a challenge to help her make her own friends. I see her as my little sister because really, she’s almost a carbon copy of my cousin.” Shit. I’ve called her a slut. Okay, she’s not a slut, but she could pull that skirt down a little lower. She’s giving out all the wrong messages!
“Then where were you for the past four weeks?” I pulled out my phone to check the time and cringed. 8:47pm. I didn’t it rained for that long, and Mum’s probably mad at me for not calling her. It’s not like I planned it to rain! She’ll let me off on this one… I hope so, at least.
I felt Yunho’s eyes stare at the side of my head but I made no move. I simply kept walking. He sighed, “I went away to think over a few things…”
Yunho left for a month to think over a few things? Are you sure it was just a few? Cause to me it sounded like a fucking truckload.
“You’re kidding, right?” I asked, and in the corner of my eye I saw his head shake.
“Then what the fuck did you have to think about that took you a month?!” I yelled. I immediately whipped my head around and dropped my head. What the hell am I doing? I’m in no position to do that! Why does his whereabouts matter so much to me anyway? Not good, not good…
He cleared his throat, and I turned my eyes to his very own pools of dark chocolate eyes; the very eyes that showed so many different emotions which confused me on so many different occasions.
“What?” I bit my lip, not wanting to hear his reply, but I had to.
“First, the girlfriend thing and now this? You sound like a jealous fan-girl, Jaejoong. What is up with you? ” He crossed his arms and waited for my reply, making me feel like I was the one who was always crazy, and I was not.
“What’s up with me?! I should be asking you that, you freak! Bullying me for no fucken reason! One day you get my number and ever since then I go through your stupid and annoying shit! Every day I feel like digging myself in a hole just so I don’t see your face! Just… Why do you hate me so much?! What the hell have I done to you? I’ve always kept my distance, so why, Yunho? Why?! Just once, answer my question!” I yelled, my breath coming out as short pants. Unable to deal with the situation any longer, I stormed off.
I was just so mad. So fucking mad that I could kick a dog. No, I’m against animal cruelty, but seriously! This guy! Let me kick him in the balls, throw him on the road and-
“I never said I hated you!” Yunho yelled out and I stopped walking away. What?
I turned around and stared at him indecorously. “Excuse me?” I felt my eyebrows scrunch up in disbelief and curiosity. If the guy didn’t hate me then why did he-
“I don’t hate you, Jaejoong. I never did, and I don’t think I ever will,” He said gently, and I really had to strain my ears to listen to every word he said because really, we were walking next to a busy road.
“So, why did you annoy me and hurt me?” That’s the only thing that I wanted to know; the only question that would linger in my head all day and night. It was like an itch crawling on my skin and would only disintegrate when I scratch it away. It was also the question that made me wonder if what Junsu said was… right.
I could literally feel my blood pumping through my veins and hear the sound of my heart. I wanted to hear what he had to say, but at the same time I was afraid. Afraid of what? I don’t know. Rejection? Disappointment?
I just wasn’t prepared for anything.
I could see Yunho darting his eyes at anything but me, and it heightened my curiosity.
“Yunh-“
“I’m annoyed at myself. I… I’m angry with myself. I keep telling myself that this feeling would pass, that it would just float away but it hasn’t. Instead… it’s just grown s-stronger,” Yunho mumbled and I looked at him confusedly.
“Yunho, you’re not making any sen-“
“You drive me insane Jaejoong. Everything about you does. Just looking at you makes me angry. Angry because I know that it’s never going to happen.” What’s not going to happen?
“In the end, I blame it all on you. I blame you for doing this to me, making me feel so strange and stupid! Every time I lay my eyes on you, I just have this need to hurt you and I hate it because in the end, I regret everything. I’ve hurt someone that means so much to me and that very person hates me to the core and it makes me feel like a stupid jerk.”
“Yunho…” I whispered. His fists were clenched by his sides and he looked at me straight in the eye. They were hard but if you stared long enough, they some how melted. Yunho was vulnerable underneath his appearance, and I felt my heart soften.
“I hate you Jae. I just hate you so much because I like you. You make me feel lighter and happy and I shouldn’t feel that way! I shouldn’t, I tell that to myself everyday… yet I still can’t let go of that feeling,” Yunho tried to smile, but it faltered a bit. The sight made me want to coo at him, but I couldn’t. My body wasn’t listening to me. It was as if it was trying to tell me that I should stop and listen.
I really didn’t know what to say. This was way too sudden, and pretty rushed and I was unprepared and just fuck my life.
I didn’t notice he started to walk towards me until he was pretty much right in my face and held out his hand at me, “Forgive this giant ass in front of you?”
I didn’t have to say anything - Thank God! I would’ve stuttered so much out of nervousness and disbelief because for once, Junsu was right - and slowly let my hand hold his own hand. His hands were rough but soft, and I loved the feel of it against my own. Of course, I wouldn’t admit it. Not now, at least.
After our exchange, I stretched my fingers and clenched them into a fist and stretched it out and moved my arm in large circles. Yunho looked at me funny, “Jaejoong, what are you-“
Bam!
“I think we’re even now, at least,” I smiled and rubbed my sore knuckles. Yeah, I punched him in the face. I felt kind of regretful seeing him bend over with his hand caressing his throbbing cheek, but I had to. Come on, I wasn’t going to forgive him without socking him in the mouth. You know men. One day they fight with their fits, the next day they’re friends. Just in this case, we fight for almost a year and then we’re friends.
He started to laugh, “Y-yeah. I think I deserved that. I think I deserved more actually.”
I looked at him with my eyebrows raised as if asking him if he wanted more, but he shook his head with a small smile. I have to say, he’s got a cute smile. It made me feel giddy.
He wrapped an arm around my shoulder and started to walk, dragging me along with him, “So, how do you feel about my lame but heart felt confession?”
I elbowed him in the rib and he laughed.
I don’t plan on telling him any time soon but I think I will.
I’ll just have to teach him about a lot of things, first. Like, ‘How-to-treat-people-nicely-when-you-have-feelings-for-them-instead-of-breaking-their-nose’.
And other things, like ‘How-to-win-Kim-Jaejoong’s-heart’.
I think I probably am a Sadist. Just a tiny bit.
“FUCK YOU, YUNHO!” I yelled as he punched my arm and ran for it. It hurt!
But I couldn’t stop the grin that was pulling the sides of my mouth open as I watched him run away with a smile, a loud laugh filling the air behind him.
He’s got a cute laugh.
A/N: I;m sorry for such the long delay. I've got hit with more school projects and what not so it's been a little hard. Also, I was kind of stumped on how to end this. The possibilties were endless, but I couldn't really decide how to end this, and I've never written humour and fluff and romance before.
I know the ending isn't all fluffy and such, but I'm experimenting and also, Jaejoong isn't going to jump into Yunho's arms after all the bullying he has given him and it's kind of weird for Jaejoong to adjust so really.. LOL NO I'M MAKING EXCUSE HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA
So um, comments and constructive feedback is welcome! ^^.
Author: ivysauur
Rating: PG-14 (Swearing)
Pairing: Yunjae/Yunho and Jaejoong
Genre: Fluff, AU, Humour, Romance
Length: 2/3
Warning: Not beta'd. Also, I changed it into a three-shot. You'll see why.
Summary: He was usually sharp-tongued, rebellious and tough, but after meeting someone he
knew he would at one point of his life, he became timid, submissive (not sexually, at least) and speechless.
Only god knows why.
Part 1, Part 2, Part 3a, Part 3b Below:
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This is weird. Yunho hasn’t been at school for a few weeks. No one knew what was up, except the principle but I couldn’t get an answer out of him. He told me that he didn’t want to share Yunho’s whereabouts with other students. I didn’t even ask him where he was! I asked him if he knew what happened to the idiot. Stupid, old man.
Junsu started rubbing it in my face that I’ve started to care for Jung, which is NOT true. It’s just… I don’t know.
It’s just weird to not have someone pestering me 24/7. I’ve just grown so used to his annoying presence. I mean, he’s been popping up everywhere around me for a couple of months and then all of a sudden he’s just… no where. I guess he finally listened to me when I said to go die in a hole?
I asked Junsu if he could ask Yoochun, only because I thought maybe it was a chance for him to fix up whatever went between him and the guy, but he didn’t want to. When I asked why, he started to tear up and I just had to not push him. Hey, he’s my best friend! I couldn’t make him do something he didn’t want to do even if he implants weird ideas in my own head.
So I settled with doing nothing, really. I woke up, got dressed, walked to school with Junsu clinging on to my arm, attended class with a bunch of idiots, walked home, ate dinner, bond with my older sister and then slept. I had that feeling that I was missing something, and I damn straight knew what it was.
I did have to admit; I kind of kept my phone with me all the time and kept an eye out for Yunho at school. I kept checking my phone for any messages from the idiot or any sign of the ass walking around in all of his ugly glory. I can’t explain why. I just needed some sort of sign to make sure he was still alive and on earth and I’ll leave it at that.
I told myself I wasn’t worried or missing his presence, but it wasn’t until Changmin came up to me one day during lunch break and took a seat with me and Junsu that I kind of thought otherwise.
Junsu raised an eyebrow, but didn’t say anything and only nodded his head at him, the taller male doing the same. Changmin hasn’t done anything; he’s only laughed with Yunho, or maybe at him. I hoped he was laughing at him. He looked at me and I nodded my head as well, since Junsu made it look okay.
“Jaejoong hyung-Can I call you that?” He asked softly. I was taken aback. I’ve never heard him talk actually, and I always imagined him with a rough voice. I mean, he’s tall, kind muscly and has this evil look on his face every day so of course it was a shock!
“I… uh- I guess,” I shrugged. He grinned at me and I just wanted to squish him. Weird, right? It’s just that I never noticed his mismatched eyes when his lips turned upwards into a smile. It was cute, okay?!
“So, Jaejoong hyung, I wanted to ask you if you had any idea where Yunho is.”
I stared at him for a few good seconds before I replied, “Huh?”
I looked at Junsu who avoided my gaze and continued to eat his lunch.
Changmin gave me a funny look before repeating himself, “I said-“
“No, no I know what you said!” Did he just ask what I thought he asked?
He gave me a confused expression, “So… do you know where he is?” Both of his eyebrows were raised. He seemed to really believe where I knew where Yunho was, and it confused me. I mean, I thought we looked like we hated each other enough that we wouldn’t care where the other was. Except for now, because I want to know where the hell he is.
I shook my head in disbelief, “Shouldn’t I be asking you that?”
He laughed, “Why? Do you want to know where he is?”
I flicked him on the forehead, “What made you think I knew which hole the idiot is sitting in?”
It was silent for a few minutes, and then he nodded, “Yeah, I don’t know actually. There could be a possibility, you know?”
“You need help,” Junsu joked, and he received a light punch in the arm from the tall male.
Changmin took a bite of his lunch which reminded me of my own meal sitting right in front of me. Picking up my chopsticks, I asked unconsciously, “So… you don’t know where he is either?”
“Either? You mean you’re looking for him too?”
Before I could even answer, Junsu shoved his big, fat ass in, “Yeah. He’s been mopping around for days. I misses Yunho so much that he keeps asking me if I’ve seen him and checks his phone all the time. Surprising, isn’t it?”
“I do not!” I kicked Junsu under the table on the shin, earning myself a loud yelp of pain. I smiled in satisfaction but it didn’t last long when Changmin started to laugh uncontrollably.
I turned to Junsu and mouthed that I really hated him, but he just shrugged it off with a smile. I pouted and poked my food in front of me with a dejected sigh and whined while tapping Junsu with my feet.
“I finally see what he sees in you,” Changmin spoke softly and Junsu choked on his water. I looked up to see Changmin looking at me… tenderly? Kind-heartedly?
“Who sees what in me?” I ask and Junsu immediately stood up and dragged Changmin out if his seat and ordered me to stay put. Of course, me being confused and having no idea what was happening, I stayed back with my eyes watching them skim through the cafeteria to the other side and stood in the corner. I don’t think I’ve wanted to know something so badly (except for the reason of Yunho’s hate towards me) because Junsu pushed Changmin against the wall and started to yell with his arms outstretched. Changmin didn’t really do much but lean back against the wall and seemed to be really calm about whatever they were talking about.
My curiosity grew because it just hit me. I’ve never seen Changmin and Junsu together. Ever. He even told me himself that he’d rather lick a homeless dude’s foot than be stuck in a room with any of Yunho’s dogs. Ooooh, this is really interesting.
After watching them for a couple of minutes, they moved back to my table and took a seat. My eyes met with the dolphin and he gulped, only because I gave him that look that said ‘you-have-shit-to-explain.’
I decided to not ask any questions because said boy started to squirm in his seat with my silence, so I decided to cool the atmosphere down.
“So, Changmin, how old are you?”
I’m angry. Pissed. Furious. IRRITATED!
Why? WHY? WHY AM I THIS ANGRY? BECAUSE I COME TO SCHOOL TO FIND YUNHO SITTING IN MY SEAT WITH A GIRL SITTING ON MY TABLE AND THEY WERE PRETTY FUCKING CLOSE. TOO CLOSE. SHE WAS TOO CLOSE TO YUNHO AND I DID NOT LIKE IT!
AND I DON’T KNOW WHY I’M ANGRY EITHER!
Ugh! I don’t know who the fuck she is, but I don’t want her dirty, little ass smothered on my table! I don’t care if she’s nice! Let me just slap someone!
I threw my pillows everywhere in my room, thanking god that nothing fell over.
Deep breaths, Jaejoong. Deep, mother fucking, breaths.
Why the hell did I worry about his existence when it was obvious he went to go fuck the girl at that party he told me about ages ago? Stupid idiot! And Stupid me!
“JUNG YUNHO YOU ASS!”
“I told you that you missed him. It’s pretty obvious that you’re jealous now, as well.”
“Junsu, you’re not helping.” I groaned and lay back on the grass. We were sitting outside again. I really needed some fresh air. I just happened to walk past Yunho who had his arm around her waist. That slut.
“Do you at least now how you feel about him now?” Junsu asked softy, careful not to tick me off some more. I sighed.
“I’m not admitting anything.”
“So you’re silently admitting you like him?”
“Junsu, I swear-“
“What would you do if I kissed him?”
I bolted up and glared at him, “What the-“
“From your reaction, I already have all the answers I need.” He said with a satisfied smile and I plopped down on the grass again with another groan.
“Seriously, Jaejoong. It’s not that bad.” He tried to convince, but I flipped him off.
“Everything is bad, Junsu! He’s hurt me, pestered me, annoyed me and then leaves me behind to fuck another girl!” I yell and punch the grass beside me. I turned to look at his expression, and he seemed to be really confused.
“You’re mad at him because he’s hanging around that girl?” He asked.
“I DON’T KNOW! She’s a stupid whore! She sat on my table!”
“I think you should know that-“
“I don’t need to know anything, Junsu! Zip it!”
“But-“
“ZIP IT!”
Junsu sighed and mumbled something like “He’s gonna regret it” but I have nothing to regret. NOTHING!
Just my luck, it starts to pour rain while I’m walking home. I’ve left my umbrella at home because it didn’t look like it was going to rain. Junsu left to go to his cousin’s house and my parents are busy with work.
I swore under my breath and took shelter by the shops of the city. My cousin’s birthday is in a few days and went to buy her something, and once I left it started to rain.
It also started to get colder. Freaken bipolar weather these days! I crossed my arms, pulling the sides of my loose school cardigan seeking warmth, but the thin material really didn’t help at all. I sighed.
I stared at the road in front of me, cars speeding by ever second and illuminated by the city lights. A few people brushed pass me a little to close, but I couldn’t blame them. Seoul was busy enough without the rain. I watched the droplets of evaporated water hit the road carelessly and found the sound of rain calming.
It wasn’t until I checked the time and noticed that it started to rain lightly that I decided to move. I wanted to get out of the chilly air and into a warm house and somewhat dry clothes. Making sure my cousins present was safe and well protected and also my school bag, I got off the wall behind me and started to quickly walk home.
“Jaejoong-ah!”
My eyebrow twitched. I knew that voice too well and I did not want to deal with him right now. Of course, he didn’t know I was mad at him, so I just had to pretend I was okay so he could back off.
I slowly turned around and stared blankly at the man in front of me.
“Yes?” I asked, and he looked at my as if I said something unbelievably stupid.
“Wow, that’s all I get from you after not being around for a couple of weeks? Ah, you wound me.” He chuckled and walked closer to me. I took note of his umbrella, and decided that I should be a little nice just so I can subtly stand under it too.
I waited until he was next to me before walking. I felt like running away, but he made an effort to talk to me without the usual painful greeting that I couldn’t.
It was silent as we walked passed two blocks before he spoke again, “Did you miss me?”
I scoffed, “Why would I?”
Yunho didn’t say anything, but instead just hummed and continued walking. I didn’t really mind the silence, but I couldn’t bear it either.
“Did you have fun with your girlfriend or something?” Was that my voice? Oh my Jesus, what the hell is wrong with me?
I looked at Yunho who must’ve been shocked because his eyes widened and he stared at me weirdly. Was he that shy about his girlfriend? What a child. Why do I even care?
“Who said I had a girlfriend?” his voice was kind of shaky and full of disbelief. I raised an eyebrow, “I don’t know you’ve been prancing around the school with a girl glued to your hip.” Or crotch. No, I haven’t seen her sitting in his lap, but she must’ve been.
“And she even had the decency to sit on my table and you guys have been too close to my liki-everybody’s liking. So really, if you put it all together…”
Not even a second later, Yunho burst out in to laughter while I kept walking beside him, looking at him in confusion. Did I do something wrong?
“Oh my god, Jaejoong! It’s… it’s… HAHAHAHA!” He kept laughing at me and I pouted. Everyone always laughs at me these pass few days and it’s kind of pissing me off. Humph.
“Are you done laughing at me?” I asked after a couple of minutes, and sped up a bit in my walking. He easily caught up and I could still hear him chuckle beside me. I noticed the rain stopped and asked him to close the umbrella. No point keeping it opened, really.
“She’s not my girlfriend, Jaejoong,” Yunho clarified and I rolled my eyes, “Yes, and I’m not a boy.”
“Jaejoong, seriously. She’s my cousin’s best friend and she just moved here. She’s unbelievably shy and it was a challenge to help her make her own friends. I see her as my little sister because really, she’s almost a carbon copy of my cousin.” Shit. I’ve called her a slut. Okay, she’s not a slut, but she could pull that skirt down a little lower. She’s giving out all the wrong messages!
“Then where were you for the past four weeks?” I pulled out my phone to check the time and cringed. 8:47pm. I didn’t it rained for that long, and Mum’s probably mad at me for not calling her. It’s not like I planned it to rain! She’ll let me off on this one… I hope so, at least.
I felt Yunho’s eyes stare at the side of my head but I made no move. I simply kept walking. He sighed, “I went away to think over a few things…”
Yunho left for a month to think over a few things? Are you sure it was just a few? Cause to me it sounded like a fucking truckload.
“You’re kidding, right?” I asked, and in the corner of my eye I saw his head shake.
“Then what the fuck did you have to think about that took you a month?!” I yelled. I immediately whipped my head around and dropped my head. What the hell am I doing? I’m in no position to do that! Why does his whereabouts matter so much to me anyway? Not good, not good…
He cleared his throat, and I turned my eyes to his very own pools of dark chocolate eyes; the very eyes that showed so many different emotions which confused me on so many different occasions.
“What?” I bit my lip, not wanting to hear his reply, but I had to.
“First, the girlfriend thing and now this? You sound like a jealous fan-girl, Jaejoong. What is up with you? ” He crossed his arms and waited for my reply, making me feel like I was the one who was always crazy, and I was not.
“What’s up with me?! I should be asking you that, you freak! Bullying me for no fucken reason! One day you get my number and ever since then I go through your stupid and annoying shit! Every day I feel like digging myself in a hole just so I don’t see your face! Just… Why do you hate me so much?! What the hell have I done to you? I’ve always kept my distance, so why, Yunho? Why?! Just once, answer my question!” I yelled, my breath coming out as short pants. Unable to deal with the situation any longer, I stormed off.
I was just so mad. So fucking mad that I could kick a dog. No, I’m against animal cruelty, but seriously! This guy! Let me kick him in the balls, throw him on the road and-
“I never said I hated you!” Yunho yelled out and I stopped walking away. What?
I turned around and stared at him indecorously. “Excuse me?” I felt my eyebrows scrunch up in disbelief and curiosity. If the guy didn’t hate me then why did he-
“I don’t hate you, Jaejoong. I never did, and I don’t think I ever will,” He said gently, and I really had to strain my ears to listen to every word he said because really, we were walking next to a busy road.
“So, why did you annoy me and hurt me?” That’s the only thing that I wanted to know; the only question that would linger in my head all day and night. It was like an itch crawling on my skin and would only disintegrate when I scratch it away. It was also the question that made me wonder if what Junsu said was… right.
I could literally feel my blood pumping through my veins and hear the sound of my heart. I wanted to hear what he had to say, but at the same time I was afraid. Afraid of what? I don’t know. Rejection? Disappointment?
I just wasn’t prepared for anything.
I could see Yunho darting his eyes at anything but me, and it heightened my curiosity.
“Yunh-“
“I’m annoyed at myself. I… I’m angry with myself. I keep telling myself that this feeling would pass, that it would just float away but it hasn’t. Instead… it’s just grown s-stronger,” Yunho mumbled and I looked at him confusedly.
“Yunho, you’re not making any sen-“
“You drive me insane Jaejoong. Everything about you does. Just looking at you makes me angry. Angry because I know that it’s never going to happen.” What’s not going to happen?
“In the end, I blame it all on you. I blame you for doing this to me, making me feel so strange and stupid! Every time I lay my eyes on you, I just have this need to hurt you and I hate it because in the end, I regret everything. I’ve hurt someone that means so much to me and that very person hates me to the core and it makes me feel like a stupid jerk.”
“Yunho…” I whispered. His fists were clenched by his sides and he looked at me straight in the eye. They were hard but if you stared long enough, they some how melted. Yunho was vulnerable underneath his appearance, and I felt my heart soften.
“I hate you Jae. I just hate you so much because I like you. You make me feel lighter and happy and I shouldn’t feel that way! I shouldn’t, I tell that to myself everyday… yet I still can’t let go of that feeling,” Yunho tried to smile, but it faltered a bit. The sight made me want to coo at him, but I couldn’t. My body wasn’t listening to me. It was as if it was trying to tell me that I should stop and listen.
I really didn’t know what to say. This was way too sudden, and pretty rushed and I was unprepared and just fuck my life.
I didn’t notice he started to walk towards me until he was pretty much right in my face and held out his hand at me, “Forgive this giant ass in front of you?”
I didn’t have to say anything - Thank God! I would’ve stuttered so much out of nervousness and disbelief because for once, Junsu was right - and slowly let my hand hold his own hand. His hands were rough but soft, and I loved the feel of it against my own. Of course, I wouldn’t admit it. Not now, at least.
After our exchange, I stretched my fingers and clenched them into a fist and stretched it out and moved my arm in large circles. Yunho looked at me funny, “Jaejoong, what are you-“
Bam!
“I think we’re even now, at least,” I smiled and rubbed my sore knuckles. Yeah, I punched him in the face. I felt kind of regretful seeing him bend over with his hand caressing his throbbing cheek, but I had to. Come on, I wasn’t going to forgive him without socking him in the mouth. You know men. One day they fight with their fits, the next day they’re friends. Just in this case, we fight for almost a year and then we’re friends.
He started to laugh, “Y-yeah. I think I deserved that. I think I deserved more actually.”
I looked at him with my eyebrows raised as if asking him if he wanted more, but he shook his head with a small smile. I have to say, he’s got a cute smile. It made me feel giddy.
He wrapped an arm around my shoulder and started to walk, dragging me along with him, “So, how do you feel about my lame but heart felt confession?”
I elbowed him in the rib and he laughed.
I don’t plan on telling him any time soon but I think I will.
I’ll just have to teach him about a lot of things, first. Like, ‘How-to-treat-people-nicely-when-you-have-feelings-for-them-instead-of-breaking-their-nose’.
And other things, like ‘How-to-win-Kim-Jaejoong’s-heart’.
I think I probably am a Sadist. Just a tiny bit.
“FUCK YOU, YUNHO!” I yelled as he punched my arm and ran for it. It hurt!
But I couldn’t stop the grin that was pulling the sides of my mouth open as I watched him run away with a smile, a loud laugh filling the air behind him.
He’s got a cute laugh.
A/N: I;m sorry for such the long delay. I've got hit with more school projects and what not so it's been a little hard. Also, I was kind of stumped on how to end this. The possibilties were endless, but I couldn't really decide how to end this, and I've never written humour and fluff and romance before.
I know the ending isn't all fluffy and such, but I'm experimenting and also, Jaejoong isn't going to jump into Yunho's arms after all the bullying he has given him and it's kind of weird for Jaejoong to adjust so really.. LOL NO I'M MAKING EXCUSE HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA
So um, comments and constructive feedback is welcome! ^^.