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I am in the worst mood right now. Why do people have to be the way they are? The girls on my floor suck (with the exception of my roommate) and all they care about is themselves and what they want to do at the present moment. They have no consideration for the needs or simple requests of anyone outside of their little clique. God forbid you should turn your music down while I'm studying and my roommate is trying to sleep. Even so...I can deal with that. I don't like the girls on my floor and I don't need them. What I really need is some time with my real friends and I just need to chill out and relax. I have really good grades but that just doesn't seem to be making life up at school any easier. I know that my roommate and Liz care about me, but I really miss the people back home that I can rely on for anything. Of course, the looming event of Valentines Day isn't making college a place that I want to be when Monday rolls around. I don't want to watch all of the other girls on my floor get all dolled up in pink and red and make Valentines for each other, and I don't want to watch all of the happy couples celebrate the fact that they're together. I just don't think I can do it. Plus, the fact that I won't be one of the lucky ladies who gets a special greeting from her prince charming is just adding to the stress and the low feeling that this holiday always seems to bring. I just wish that he would either decide that he likes me or that I would decide that I don't like him so that this whole thing can just be over with already and I can move on and stop trying to subconsciously pursue something that may or may not happen. It's out of my control and I don't like it. I need a hug and a rose and a boy who cares and I think that I absolutely pathetic and weak for needing these things that I have always told myself that I wouldn't need. I feel alone up here and I'm sick of it.