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Have I mentioned that I really love our house? We've been in 3 and a half months now, and I have finally stopped driving by the old house. As small and crappy as it was (is), I get nostalgic for it. Ella has a baby book that has a place for a picture of our first home, and I put in this picture:
. Ha! (For the noobs, the house really looked like this) (Note: WHO has this much free time? Oh, that's right, a stay-at-home pregnant person.) It's hard to work up the same enthusiasm to paint and decorate this house, because GAH, didn't we just do that? Oh, right. That was the other place. So, we are starting to tack up paint chip samples, scour thrift stores for weird art, and talk about landscaping. In a perfect world, all of this would be done before the wedding, when 92756296 people will be seeing the house for the first time, but I am not deluding myself - between now and then, we have to put together a wedding, graduate college, and keep up with a VERY busy little girl. Painting = not very likely.
Looking through my LJ photostorage, I really just want to stay home and sort it all out. Instead, i have a 10 page paper to write and an entire book to read before 5. Think it will happen?
Not if i sit here and tell you fools about it. Gah.
Also: Today is my friend Tiffany's last day as a not-mom. It's hard to remember what my life felt like before I had Ella, but I know that even on my best days, I was still a little sad. I was lonely, I was frustrated, and I could not see further than next week, let alone my future. A good day included a beer and a cute boy (most bad days had these things also). And then, I became a mom, and even my worst days, when I am tired and confused and fed up with the day to day struggles - even those days are good days, because Ella holds my hand when we walk, and she snuggles her face into my shoulder when she cries, and when she sees something new she says "Wow!" and begs me to go explore it with her. I am excited for Tiffany, because she deserves this kind of happiness.
You are going to be a great mom Tiff.
. Ha! (For the noobs, the house really looked like this) (Note: WHO has this much free time? Oh, that's right, a stay-at-home pregnant person.) It's hard to work up the same enthusiasm to paint and decorate this house, because GAH, didn't we just do that? Oh, right. That was the other place. So, we are starting to tack up paint chip samples, scour thrift stores for weird art, and talk about landscaping. In a perfect world, all of this would be done before the wedding, when 92756296 people will be seeing the house for the first time, but I am not deluding myself - between now and then, we have to put together a wedding, graduate college, and keep up with a VERY busy little girl. Painting = not very likely.
Looking through my LJ photostorage, I really just want to stay home and sort it all out. Instead, i have a 10 page paper to write and an entire book to read before 5. Think it will happen?
Not if i sit here and tell you fools about it. Gah.
Also: Today is my friend Tiffany's last day as a not-mom. It's hard to remember what my life felt like before I had Ella, but I know that even on my best days, I was still a little sad. I was lonely, I was frustrated, and I could not see further than next week, let alone my future. A good day included a beer and a cute boy (most bad days had these things also). And then, I became a mom, and even my worst days, when I am tired and confused and fed up with the day to day struggles - even those days are good days, because Ella holds my hand when we walk, and she snuggles her face into my shoulder when she cries, and when she sees something new she says "Wow!" and begs me to go explore it with her. I am excited for Tiffany, because she deserves this kind of happiness.
You are going to be a great mom Tiff.