Just another random thoughts...
Well, to be honest, I only came here if I wanted to download something. It's been a way long before I posted something that related to my fandom. I wish I myself had an answer to all of these. Am I a fan? Yes. Am I still a part of the fandom ? Yes. But do I have time to get involved into fandom like I always do? ermm..not so. Not like I always did previously. My job is making me busy. Yeah...that's it. It's the working time that give me limited time to hanging around the fandom.
I miss the old me. The old me that always work hard cuz she wants to see Arashi. The one that wished that she have the chance to see Kazu and the rest of members in person and the one where she can talk more about her fandom with the rest of her Arashian friends and yet when Arashi wasn't even on Youtube. But I guess everything change .
Arashi came to SEA and I even haven't got a chance like the rest of my friends where they have the previlege to see them. I'm happy for them. I really am. At least their dreams to see their idols came true.Me? I guess I just have to wait for the miracle. There's alot to take too when I heard Kazunari Ninomiya is married but somehow it's weird cuz I don't feel sad..(erm..okay , that's a lie) I mean I do feel sad but then again it suprised me cuz it took me a day to move on. Maybe I already have a hunch in my mind saying that he'll be the first one whom going to marry soon despite his said that he have no intention to get married. ** Tula acah-acah tak nak kawen konon..last-last, kau orang yang pertama kawen dulu**
But, that's okay, I love Arashi as a whole. Nothing change much except that Kazu is no longer someone I'm obsessed with hahaha **drama sangatkan** . I love Arashi as the 5 dorky childhood friends that grew up with me and Kazu is like my childhood crush whom I never get married with. **Tolong ya Kazu...Hang tu dah kawen , perangai tu elok sikit eh...x lama lagi nak jadi bapak orang dah...** haha
Seriously, aku x minat bini dia but somehow, aku tak benci dia juga. Just not a fan. Nak doakan yang tak elok pun x masuk akal jugak..dia bukan tau aku ni wujud. Daripada buat penat aku sumpah seranah as so-called- Arashi-fans yang lain (well, diorang tu x layak dipanggil fans), baik aku doakan dia yang elok2 je **more like tak terfikir pun nak kutuk or sumpah seranah diorg laki bini tu**Plus, I think I like someone else better now.. hehe
Sape ? Well, he's someone in J&A too but I guess maybe I keep it for a while. Sebab x best bila orang lain tau hahah except for sorang. And nope...he's not from Arashi hehehe agak2 siapa eh?
Anyway, I am glad yang Arashi dah ade YT channel and instagram and other socmed yang lain. At least they know where to find their fans during their hiatus. Yeah, tu salah satu perubahan yang akan aku kene hadap satu hari nanti. But aku x kisah pun sebab maybe dah masa diorang untuk rehat. 20 tahun, okay, diorang bertungkus lumus untuk naik .
Kalau masa aku mula-mula aku kenal diorang, diorang ni xde la sefamous sekarang. But aku happy sangat sebab diorang dah berjaya and at the same time they still who they are dari dulu sampai sekarang. Down to earth, humble and baik hati. I'm glad I grew up with them. So, pada aku it's their time to be free and let them do what ever they feels like doing.
Okay, it seems that aku dah mula nak mengarut ni..better stop dulu. hehe And sorry sebab tetiba je aku tulis dalam BM , sebab aku rasa takde sape pun yang akan baca post aku ni...so, biar je la..Kan?