I Won't Lie, I Want You For Mine
So I have come to the ultimate conclusion that all of my problems as of late stem from the fact that I was falling out of love with Ben, and quite frankly I just don't want that to happen. I do love him and I can see that all that he and I have been doing lately is killing each other very slowly, so slowly in fact that we haven't really realized it. I don't want to fall out of love with him, I really believe that he and I have something that I should fight for. I think it is too easy to walk away from the people you love today, Ben is worth fighting for. That being said I think a large portion of the problem resides with me. He is where I needed him to be all along and now I need to remember what that girl felt like. What it meant to be happy, really happy, not just okay. Life isn't about being okay, its about feeling. I shut myself off the last time I got hurt and I forgot to flip the switch back to on. So I don't know what I am going to do, all I know is that right now I know where I am going to end up, and I can really say Ben is one hundred percent where I want to find myself 5 years from now. That being said, I feel that this is a wonderful new beginning for me.
-Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
-"Have you ever loved somethin', someone, so intensely that the power of it strips away everythin' are, changes you utterly, fills you up and spits you out a different person, a better person than you ever thought you could be, than you ever wanted to be? A little cleaner, a little more whole."
-Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish it's source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.
-Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
-"Have you ever loved somethin', someone, so intensely that the power of it strips away everythin' are, changes you utterly, fills you up and spits you out a different person, a better person than you ever thought you could be, than you ever wanted to be? A little cleaner, a little more whole."
-Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish it's source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.