how could I have known?

[ivydelilah]

You never really know how nice someone can be until tradegy happens. More often than not people see my little sister kim as a bitch.. which she can be.. it wasn't until yesterday that I realized that she can be so nice to people. There was this younger kid that hung around her for years.. his name is Matt.. no one really liked him, and Kim was the only person that was ever nice to him, with the exception of a few others. She was his best friend from 6th grade till now. His dad was an asshole, and made him live in a trailer outside of their house, and his stepmom was a bitch, although I don't think she lives there anymore. The other day he was in a bad bike accident and he wasn't wearing his helmet.. he was fine right after, and he told her that he got a black eye, and he wanted to show it to her because he thought it was cool. They were supposed to go on a field trip at school and he didnt go, due to the accident, and no one thought anything of it. The next day kim didnt go to school, I think she wasnt feeling good or something, but her teacher called her and told her that she had bad news.. Matt didn't show up for school, and he had passed away in his sleep, due to the bike accident, I think his eyes were really swollen due to the pressure that was built up in a his head. Kim was the last person that talked to him. She cried for days, and she told me about it yesterday, and of course it made me cry too, just because i knew who he was, and he was an alright kid, he was kinda annoying, but he was nice nonetheless. The saddest part is that he's probably in a better place, and he's being treated better than he ever was here. It just really hit me hard, just because it makes me think.. she can be sooo nice when she wants to be, and she was soo nice to him. I'm really proud of her, for not being like everyone else, and following what everyone else thinks.. he was so alone and she was one of his only friends. And it didnt matter to him that he lived in a trailer outside of his house, he was still soo happy. And its weird, because I guess a few days before the accident Kim and him and one of their friends were talking about when they die, how they want to be, like put in a coffin or creamated.. and he wanted to be creamated, because he didnt like the thought of bugs eating him away.. and thats what happened, which is really sad. they creamated him. His funeral is on monday, and I wish I could be there, not just to attend, but to be there for kim, because she misses him. but i can't due to school. They got a really cute picture of him, and blew it up, and their class finished a project he was working on, and they planted a tree for him in their front yard. His memorial is going to be at meining park, because the funeral home isn't big enough. it just makes you think.. even if there are people around that you don't really like, you should be nice to them anyway, because you never know when it will be your time to leave. Unfortunately his time was just too soon... And it really puts a new perspective on things for me.. I need to be a nicer person, because there are just times that I am vicious. and that makes me sad.

on a lighter note.. I got a job at subway, and I worked 4 days in a row already.

I hope everyone has a great day... I love you all.