Don't get too tired for love
I don't have the energy to explain it, but I've realized that I am officially psychotic. It's getting annoying and it's getting in the way of my school work, which is even more annoying because, dude, I have to do well if I plan on passing Algebra. I won't have a second chance with this class.
I also need to figure out a way of getting my hair to stay up during my psychotic fits, because the wispy hairs are what annoys me the most during my episodes. I also need to figure out how to scratch myself without making myself bleed. I think I should invest in a back scratcher; I want one that's pink with cherries on it. I shouldn't have brought this up, now I'm itchy.
I have diagnosed myself with having what I call fits of Claustrophobic Faux-Allergic Reaction Psychoses. Well, maybe I do have the energy to explain. It happens in stages:
1. I get claustrophobic. GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME. People not so much. But objects like chairs, yes, please, get me out of this desk omg omg omg. And then it's my clothes and jewelry; I have to take off my necklaces, bracelets, rings, and my fake tattoo. And my jacket.
2. I get itchy. I HAVE to put my hair up in the tightest bun possible and I have to keep adjusting it to keep the tiny hairs from coming out and bothering my forehead and neck. This doesn't help my itchy scalp though, which is even harder to scratch because of the tight hair. I also have to scratch my neck, back, and arms and occasionally my thighs. I'm getting the itchy part now, ugh.
3. I get annoyed. Because, seriously, THIS IS ANNOYING AND DISRUPTIVE. And it's been happening since about tenth grade, since I remember describing being itchy all the time even back then.
But this is all psychotic itching!! THERE'S NO REASON FOR IT! I just..... get itchy. I dunno what's up with that.
And then last night and the night before I had awful heart palpitations. I wasn't nervous about anything, my heart just started pumping at like, 900000000 beats per minute. It's just awful, because there's nothing I can do to slow it down.
Plus my emotions have been AWFUL, I keep bursting into tears over silly things, and having weird food cravings (this is very minor though. I really want cake) and random back/leg/shoulder/neckaches, and my wrist hurts in keyboarding class, and I got my period (which explains the emotions) and I had a headache today that was a combination of a tension headache (neck area and random other bits) allergic reaction to scents headace (crown of head and forehead area... I was near baby stuff last night, and the smell of baby powder and baby oil and baby things filled my nose and refused to go away) and a hormonal headache (simply extreme pain all over my head). I couldn't move my head, it was that bad. I couldn't let my head droop, I had to keep it tilted back (I know. How weird is that?) I took a Midol, which seems to have helped, although I still have a lingering I REALLY NEED TO GO TO SLEEP headache. I get those a lot though. And I'm really itchy. AND I WANT CAKE. But I've already had enough cake for today. I usually don't crave sweet stuff, so I'm not sure what's up with that, either, but some organic potato chips would be super right now.
Maybe I'm just crazy.
EDIT: I forgot to add to the headache part that I also had a crying headache, which is a type of headache some people get when they cry, and since I cried from the pain I got a crying headache and so I had THAT type of headache near my occipital lobe. Ouch.
Don't feel bad for me. I'll be okay. :) :) :)
-Ivyette @ 1:44 PM P.S. I'm going to bed. So much for my appointment with the boyfriend for a 1 o'clock meeting, hmph. Mmmmm, sleep. Maybe after some good sleep I'll be better. <33
I also need to figure out a way of getting my hair to stay up during my psychotic fits, because the wispy hairs are what annoys me the most during my episodes. I also need to figure out how to scratch myself without making myself bleed. I think I should invest in a back scratcher; I want one that's pink with cherries on it. I shouldn't have brought this up, now I'm itchy.
I have diagnosed myself with having what I call fits of Claustrophobic Faux-Allergic Reaction Psychoses. Well, maybe I do have the energy to explain. It happens in stages:
1. I get claustrophobic. GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME. People not so much. But objects like chairs, yes, please, get me out of this desk omg omg omg. And then it's my clothes and jewelry; I have to take off my necklaces, bracelets, rings, and my fake tattoo. And my jacket.
2. I get itchy. I HAVE to put my hair up in the tightest bun possible and I have to keep adjusting it to keep the tiny hairs from coming out and bothering my forehead and neck. This doesn't help my itchy scalp though, which is even harder to scratch because of the tight hair. I also have to scratch my neck, back, and arms and occasionally my thighs. I'm getting the itchy part now, ugh.
3. I get annoyed. Because, seriously, THIS IS ANNOYING AND DISRUPTIVE. And it's been happening since about tenth grade, since I remember describing being itchy all the time even back then.
But this is all psychotic itching!! THERE'S NO REASON FOR IT! I just..... get itchy. I dunno what's up with that.
And then last night and the night before I had awful heart palpitations. I wasn't nervous about anything, my heart just started pumping at like, 900000000 beats per minute. It's just awful, because there's nothing I can do to slow it down.
Plus my emotions have been AWFUL, I keep bursting into tears over silly things, and having weird food cravings (this is very minor though. I really want cake) and random back/leg/shoulder/neckaches, and my wrist hurts in keyboarding class, and I got my period (which explains the emotions) and I had a headache today that was a combination of a tension headache (neck area and random other bits) allergic reaction to scents headace (crown of head and forehead area... I was near baby stuff last night, and the smell of baby powder and baby oil and baby things filled my nose and refused to go away) and a hormonal headache (simply extreme pain all over my head). I couldn't move my head, it was that bad. I couldn't let my head droop, I had to keep it tilted back (I know. How weird is that?) I took a Midol, which seems to have helped, although I still have a lingering I REALLY NEED TO GO TO SLEEP headache. I get those a lot though. And I'm really itchy. AND I WANT CAKE. But I've already had enough cake for today. I usually don't crave sweet stuff, so I'm not sure what's up with that, either, but some organic potato chips would be super right now.
Maybe I'm just crazy.
EDIT: I forgot to add to the headache part that I also had a crying headache, which is a type of headache some people get when they cry, and since I cried from the pain I got a crying headache and so I had THAT type of headache near my occipital lobe. Ouch.
Don't feel bad for me. I'll be okay. :) :) :)
-Ivyette @ 1:44 PM P.S. I'm going to bed. So much for my appointment with the boyfriend for a 1 o'clock meeting, hmph. Mmmmm, sleep. Maybe after some good sleep I'll be better. <33