relieved...

Dec 19, 2005 13:19

i just handed in my paper after pulling an all-nighter. i am SO exhausted... at the same time, i'm really proud of myself that i didn't snack TOO much last night. usually i "allow" myself to nibble on really bad things like donuts and chips when i'm studying, but somehow i resisted the urge last night and i feel pretty good about it right now - other than the fact that i am completely exhausted. at least if i nap this afternoon, that'll be an easier way to avoid the temptation of eating!!!

also going to the bf's house tomorrow... definitely CANNOT allow myself to take in any unnecessary calories before then, since i will probably be eating like a normal person there. it's times like this when i realize that it's kind of sad that i fear doing what a normal person is supposed to do - like eat 3 times a day... am i ever going to fall into that category and be okay with it one day? i don't know. if it means being fat, i certainly hope not. as for now, i know that i'm pretty happy weighing 102 pounds even if it means having to sacrifice the normalcy of eating food...
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