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right. so.
last weekend caitlin came down and stayed for a night. it was amazing and i like her so much and i am falling, falling. right.
this weekend, i went to her place and we broke up. i had a really nice time with her and her friends during the day, and then once we'd gone to bed we were talking talking talking deep meaningful blah blah blah she's inexperienced and unconfident and not ready and i'm just a paranoid nutjob who needs a lot of touch and affection and well, sex, when i'm in a relationship to be happy. and i could do without the sex (to a point!), because i can take care of that myself, but then she tells me that she is fresh out of her last relationship and it was emotionally intense and exhausting and now she needs to 'take things slow' and not have to worry about 'all that'. and i just can't can't can't do that, i am intense (it's my middle name!) and i fall in love instantaneously, more or less (refer to: 'i'll make your bed, i'll clean and shine your shoes [04 Sep 2008|09:11pm]'). i don't see the point in relationships if you're not going to invest yourself in them.
so. one month and three days.
at least not much time was invested. i could have fallen a lot harder.
so, there's that.
thank the lord i am off to hobart for three weeks now. i will be so busy i won't have time to think.
last weekend caitlin came down and stayed for a night. it was amazing and i like her so much and i am falling, falling. right.
this weekend, i went to her place and we broke up. i had a really nice time with her and her friends during the day, and then once we'd gone to bed we were talking talking talking deep meaningful blah blah blah she's inexperienced and unconfident and not ready and i'm just a paranoid nutjob who needs a lot of touch and affection and well, sex, when i'm in a relationship to be happy. and i could do without the sex (to a point!), because i can take care of that myself, but then she tells me that she is fresh out of her last relationship and it was emotionally intense and exhausting and now she needs to 'take things slow' and not have to worry about 'all that'. and i just can't can't can't do that, i am intense (it's my middle name!) and i fall in love instantaneously, more or less (refer to: 'i'll make your bed, i'll clean and shine your shoes [04 Sep 2008|09:11pm]'). i don't see the point in relationships if you're not going to invest yourself in them.
so. one month and three days.
at least not much time was invested. i could have fallen a lot harder.
so, there's that.
thank the lord i am off to hobart for three weeks now. i will be so busy i won't have time to think.