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Well it started out with me getting a phone call from my dad asking me to meet him at this hotel, he sounded pretty desperate, and I had been ignoring his calls and emails and so on for a while so i thought that I actually would meet him for once. So I was making my way over there but everything was going wrong, I couldn't get a bus or taxi or anything so I was a couple of hours late. Also I was worrying because in my dream it was common knowledge that this hotel he asked me to meet him at was one where everyone went to commit suicide. So I was stressing out about what he was gonna tell me and also because I was running late and you know what if I missed my last and only chance?
When I finally got there I saw Wendy, but she had changed she was much older and fatter and her face was covered in liver spots and it was wrinkly and she looked about 80 and she had two kids with her (twins) which in my dream i knew were dads kids and they were about two but at the same time were equally covered in liver spots and had that papery wrinkly old people skin, it was kinda creepy. I asked Wendy where dad was, and if i was too late, she said I wasn't and that dad would be very glad I made it, and also that he had just given up.
I went into the room she indicated and Dad was sitting in a chair with his head in his hands, he looked up when he saw me and he had tears pouring down his face. He said I'm sorry. it didn't really have the conversation in the dream but basically he had finally woken up to the fact of what he had done, that he had thrown away the life he loved and the love of his life and his two kids and he could basically never forgive himself for it and he had to end it because he didn't think that he could ever make things right with me and jake and he could certainly never set things right with mum, so he wanted to tell me that he loved me and to say that he was sorry for everything that he had done, and that someday he hoped I would be able to forgive his memory.
I woke up crying and I dunno it made me realise that despite everything, all the shit that has gone down, everything, I still love him, I didn't think I did I thought I had stopped, I still want to forgive him, I want him to realise what he's done and try to make it better. but I know that won't happen, I don't know why the situation with my father has been getting to me so much recently, nothing has changed but I've been more emotional with everything to do with it, it's been making me cry alot recently.
Anyway, I went to "Click" last sunday and Pirates 2 last night.
Click was ok, I thought the story was predictable and kinda sappy, but over all quite good, it was well told and yeah it had Christopher Walken in it and he rocks. I think normally I wouldn't pay to see that sort of movie.
Pirates on the other hand was awesome, I loved it, the fight scenes were amazing, the story was good, Johnny was awesome as only Johnny can be, Orlando was annoying and ponsy as he is good at but yeah over all I would totally recomend it.
Also been watching lots of DVD's with Kip, trash mostly but its always fun watching trashygirlyfilms with friends and chocolate ice cream. So the list of movies I've watched int he last few days is as follows
garden state, the shining (original) green wing (not a movie but yeah,) with the boys on Wednesday/thursday
Just Like Heaven, War of the Worlds, Wedding Crashers, Bewtiched (with Kip this weekend).
War of the worlds was a stupid choice, I am shit scared of aliens so I spent a lot of the movie trying to hide behind a cushion, its the only movie I've ever really done that in, but dear god the aliens. Just like Heaven was cut and it had (predictably) the cure on the sound track the song just like heaven of course, bewitched was odd... it was ok, Nicole kidman plays a ditsy blonde really well. Wedding Crashers was very predictable, but I liked it none the less.