Sep 11, 2007 00:44
Last night's dream seemed to suit the mood I've been feeling lately...with quitting my job, not having another one set up, my sister left without even telling me (mixed feelings there), and so on...
I don't remember much detail in the dream other than it was always dim. Like the sunset stayed frozen in the sky and wasn't ever going anywhere. There were mixed feelings of it always being creepy and sad. Everywhere I went, I felt like someone was always after me, on my trail. There were cars now and then in the most random places such as a beach or hill, or sand dune. They'd be speeding, sometimes it looked as though they were coming right at me, but they'd change direction. There were cars everywhere that drove into the ocean, drove off cliffs.
The world was ending and there were spies/special agents who tried convincing people that it was and they had to leave or they'd succumb to that sad dimness and never get out of it. Patti and I tried driving away, but it was everywhere. People I knew were dying or turning crazy. Suddenly anyone/everyone could be against you.
At one point, all this stuff in life didn't really bother me so much, cuz i kept in mind that i'd be alright and the rough patch will smooth over in time. But it became easier to just let fear and worry eat away at me, and so I felt that everything was ending and I'd have nothing.