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Private//Personal
Desire and Despair. It is like living in Belle's court once more.
But... Desire does not turn from me as she does. The Lady Lord has all of Jean-Claude's charms, all of Belle Morte's beauty - when he chooses, when she wants.
And Anita - who loves me but wants so much... She wants to give, but the taking...
I want someone to think of me first upon waking and last before sleeping. I want someone who does not turn away from any part of me.
I grow so weary. I now have the false memory of centuries of life and love with Julianna and Jean-Claude. This place knows cruelties that Belle can only dream of.
I wake now and my hands reach for the places that should be filled with the bodies of my beloveds. Instead, I wake alone, time after time. I had grown used to it and the City stripped that away as a game.
How long can I endure this? I do not even have my hatred to warm the cold of my soul.
/Private
I am curious about this City's library. It does not contain only English-language resources, is that so?
Desire and Despair. It is like living in Belle's court once more.
But... Desire does not turn from me as she does. The Lady Lord has all of Jean-Claude's charms, all of Belle Morte's beauty - when he chooses, when she wants.
And Anita - who loves me but wants so much... She wants to give, but the taking...
I want someone to think of me first upon waking and last before sleeping. I want someone who does not turn away from any part of me.
I grow so weary. I now have the false memory of centuries of life and love with Julianna and Jean-Claude. This place knows cruelties that Belle can only dream of.
I wake now and my hands reach for the places that should be filled with the bodies of my beloveds. Instead, I wake alone, time after time. I had grown used to it and the City stripped that away as a game.
How long can I endure this? I do not even have my hatred to warm the cold of my soul.
/Private
I am curious about this City's library. It does not contain only English-language resources, is that so?