I Have A Dream
And I don't know if I can make it happen. I feel woefully underprepared right now. Maybe it's just the headache talking, but I was poking at some websites relevant to this dream and, well. I don't know if I can make it happen. I know what I want to be doing in one year, but I feel like I've started preparing too late, like I've already failed to meet some threshold of interest that will bar me from my dream forever. FOREVER. It's just...very frustrating. All I have is this one year, so I need to make it count, and I know that, it's just...I'm already getting discouraged. But if I don't go after this dream I don't know what I'm going to do with myself once I graduate. I mean, if I don't get the sort of job I need to make The Dream start happening, I have a couple options, but...well. They'd be consolation prizes and I know it.
I have one year (nine months) to magically transform myself into an adult with a marketable skill set in my chosen entry and I feel like I have, by some dint of not working hard enough to researching hard enough or quite possibly not wanting hard enough (even though I want this more than any other option I can think of) I have already failed before the starting gun has gone of. :/ And it's really discouraging, and even finding out more about The Dream is making me more and more discouraged and...yeah. Generic oh-god-I-have-only-a-year-of-undergrad-left-I'm-screwed feelings, I suppose.
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I have one year (nine months) to magically transform myself into an adult with a marketable skill set in my chosen entry and I feel like I have, by some dint of not working hard enough to researching hard enough or quite possibly not wanting hard enough (even though I want this more than any other option I can think of) I have already failed before the starting gun has gone of. :/ And it's really discouraging, and even finding out more about The Dream is making me more and more discouraged and...yeah. Generic oh-god-I-have-only-a-year-of-undergrad-left-I'm-screwed feelings, I suppose.
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