Unable to live up
Lesson yesterday, prehearing today.
I'm pretty proud of yesterday because my lesson went great. I did a lot of really good stuff and Dr. Parr said my program was in good shape. So that's great.
Today my prehearing was okay. Only okay. There are a lot of excuses; I had frustrating insomnia last night, my court date this morning kept me from warming up, but none of those excuses are really good. I only kind of rocked and I didn't bring the thunder and I kept losing my concentration and making stupid fucking mistakes.
I know I have the potential for greatness. I just can't seem to bring it out in public. And what good is potential if you can't even make it a decent product after seven years of training?
So I'm kind of bummed right now. I'll be fine. The only consolation I have is that it could have gone a lot worse. I'll be silly and charming later.
I'm pretty proud of yesterday because my lesson went great. I did a lot of really good stuff and Dr. Parr said my program was in good shape. So that's great.
Today my prehearing was okay. Only okay. There are a lot of excuses; I had frustrating insomnia last night, my court date this morning kept me from warming up, but none of those excuses are really good. I only kind of rocked and I didn't bring the thunder and I kept losing my concentration and making stupid fucking mistakes.
I know I have the potential for greatness. I just can't seem to bring it out in public. And what good is potential if you can't even make it a decent product after seven years of training?
So I'm kind of bummed right now. I'll be fine. The only consolation I have is that it could have gone a lot worse. I'll be silly and charming later.