Lay me down with your machine gun
Damn.
I was so stressed out before Spring Break. I was really in need of a vacation that consisted of rock shows and drinking. And I got it, and it was awesome, and I got to be with amazing people, to boot.
I figured I'd get back here and be all energized and refreshed and ready to take on my recital and the music department and everything in general.
Instead, all I've done is have a string of bad days and a constant, nagging sensation of "Damn, I really don't like it here." Nacogdoches was fun when there was novelty, but the lack of civilization and things to do and people to relate to are making it seem very stagnant and uninspired. Ever since SXSW and the definitive "I'm moving to Austin after graduation" decision, I'm really itching to be there. There's more music opportunities, a job transfer waiting for me, and family of course (family that I actually LIKE. Who knew?).
I used to love accompaniment, but now it's eating my soul.
Dr. Parr is an amazing teacher, but I'm just moving in a different direction than what he's trying to teach me.
At least there's Easter weekend to get me in a more positive mindset. I'm just hoping that after this prehearing and court date and all that nonsense is over, I'll have a reprieve of a couple of days or so to get my positivity and motivation back.
I was so stressed out before Spring Break. I was really in need of a vacation that consisted of rock shows and drinking. And I got it, and it was awesome, and I got to be with amazing people, to boot.
I figured I'd get back here and be all energized and refreshed and ready to take on my recital and the music department and everything in general.
Instead, all I've done is have a string of bad days and a constant, nagging sensation of "Damn, I really don't like it here." Nacogdoches was fun when there was novelty, but the lack of civilization and things to do and people to relate to are making it seem very stagnant and uninspired. Ever since SXSW and the definitive "I'm moving to Austin after graduation" decision, I'm really itching to be there. There's more music opportunities, a job transfer waiting for me, and family of course (family that I actually LIKE. Who knew?).
I used to love accompaniment, but now it's eating my soul.
Dr. Parr is an amazing teacher, but I'm just moving in a different direction than what he's trying to teach me.
At least there's Easter weekend to get me in a more positive mindset. I'm just hoping that after this prehearing and court date and all that nonsense is over, I'll have a reprieve of a couple of days or so to get my positivity and motivation back.