hubba bubba max!
Friday was pretty cool. I had that poli sci test, and you know, it wasn't too bad! i also had that test for Voss. i got 25.5 out of 50. three people in the class scored above 40. wtf.
meanwhile, that night i went to Andy's for movies and rock band. my mom bitched about me going because i wouldn't be home till midnight (although i'm 17 now. i kindof ENJOY being trusted), but we eventually settled on midnight. At andy's we saw Mean Girls finally. and oh. my. god. i love that movie. i feel so gay watching Regina George get what she deserves and i don't CARE. FUCK.
then on saturday, i woke up and went to mr. voss's study session for AP chem. that was fun. then i went to efron's to play GTA IV and it's amazing. all of the movement and physics is super realistic, and it feels like everyone there is like... REAL. the game's a lot more realistic too, which is both a good and bad thing. anyways, then i went to bianca's for band practice and she wasn't fucking there! we waited around for an hour and a half and she still didn't show up. so we left, and i went to do chores. and then bianca called and appologized, and i found out that she was with Lauren as well! so i could have totally hung out with loren! unfortunately, i had chores to do at home. i DID get to talk to lauren a bit on the phone though, and you know, shit! she really seems like an interesting person. so i'd definitely like to hang out with her some time. OH! and on the phone, she asked who i was going with to prom. to which i have no answer. i told her "i THINK i might be going alone, but i honestly have no idea? it's still a ways off so nothing's set in stone". and she didn't ask explicitly "WELL CAN I GO WITH YOU LOLOLOL?", so i'm just going to play dumb. speaking of prom, i have a few options now:
1. Go with Lauren. From things i've heard her say, and the way her voice quivered on the phone, i'm 75% sure she has a crush of some kind on me. I wouldn't say i have a crush on her of any kind, but i'm totally willing to go out with her a few times to see how things turn out. advantages of taking her to prom is that i'd actually have a 4 rlz prom date, as well as someone who seems interesting and fun, and i'd like to get to know her better. disadvantage is that taking her in our group of friends would be awkward for everyone else, and i don't blame you for not wanting to have her be in a hotel room with us etc. etc., and i would feel bad dropping her off wherever and then going to the hotel alone. so that means i would most likely not be at the hotel room, which would suck (unless you're okay with lauren being there. again, i won't blame you for not wanting to).
2. Shannon offered that danielle, her and i could go as a threesome of sorts. This would be pretty cool, seeing as i'd be going with friends AND have a "date". in fact, two! that's awesome! But then i'd have to buy a corsage for both of them (because i'd feel bad just getting one for one of them). another downside is that i'd feel like i'm just crawling back after being... well, basically rejected and tossed aside. and that's no fun.
3. Go alone. currently, this is what i think might end up happening. no dealing with corsages or whatever, but the downside of this is that i'd feel like the odd man out. even though it's ENTIRELY a ceremonial thing that means nothing, i still feel pretty bad when i think that everyone else in our group of friends would prefer to go with someone else, and i'm left out of the crowd. furthermore, my mom and dad are pressuring me all the time, asking me who i'm going with to prom. and i know that they'd be disappointed if i didn't have anyone to go with. i could always pretend that danielle or veronika or someone was my prom date just for them, but i'd still know inside that i was lying, and it just feels low class and sleazy.
4. Ask someone else. I of course can't forget that the school is filled with lots and lots of girls i haven't even thought of yet, and that's always an option. I could also ask some girl that our group is already on good terms with, so it'd be less awkward for the group. only problem HERE, is that it still IS a little awkward. I could always ask like Lisa or Devyn or someone, but they either a) won't want to be in the hotel room (and i am NOT wasting all that gas driving them home from downtown), or b) it'll just be awkward staying in a hotel room with them.
so i don't know. i'll figure out something, but i would GREATLY appreciate you guys (actual friends AND internet friends) giving me advice here.
ANYWAYS, so today's mother's day, and i got my mom some earrings and a matching necklace. she liked them, so that's nice. we also went to church, where i saw Gavin Bibby, and some black guy with super nappy hair and i wanted to touch it. but i didn't. yay self-control!
meanwhile, that night i went to Andy's for movies and rock band. my mom bitched about me going because i wouldn't be home till midnight (although i'm 17 now. i kindof ENJOY being trusted), but we eventually settled on midnight. At andy's we saw Mean Girls finally. and oh. my. god. i love that movie. i feel so gay watching Regina George get what she deserves and i don't CARE. FUCK.
then on saturday, i woke up and went to mr. voss's study session for AP chem. that was fun. then i went to efron's to play GTA IV and it's amazing. all of the movement and physics is super realistic, and it feels like everyone there is like... REAL. the game's a lot more realistic too, which is both a good and bad thing. anyways, then i went to bianca's for band practice and she wasn't fucking there! we waited around for an hour and a half and she still didn't show up. so we left, and i went to do chores. and then bianca called and appologized, and i found out that she was with Lauren as well! so i could have totally hung out with loren! unfortunately, i had chores to do at home. i DID get to talk to lauren a bit on the phone though, and you know, shit! she really seems like an interesting person. so i'd definitely like to hang out with her some time. OH! and on the phone, she asked who i was going with to prom. to which i have no answer. i told her "i THINK i might be going alone, but i honestly have no idea? it's still a ways off so nothing's set in stone". and she didn't ask explicitly "WELL CAN I GO WITH YOU LOLOLOL?", so i'm just going to play dumb. speaking of prom, i have a few options now:
1. Go with Lauren. From things i've heard her say, and the way her voice quivered on the phone, i'm 75% sure she has a crush of some kind on me. I wouldn't say i have a crush on her of any kind, but i'm totally willing to go out with her a few times to see how things turn out. advantages of taking her to prom is that i'd actually have a 4 rlz prom date, as well as someone who seems interesting and fun, and i'd like to get to know her better. disadvantage is that taking her in our group of friends would be awkward for everyone else, and i don't blame you for not wanting to have her be in a hotel room with us etc. etc., and i would feel bad dropping her off wherever and then going to the hotel alone. so that means i would most likely not be at the hotel room, which would suck (unless you're okay with lauren being there. again, i won't blame you for not wanting to).
2. Shannon offered that danielle, her and i could go as a threesome of sorts. This would be pretty cool, seeing as i'd be going with friends AND have a "date". in fact, two! that's awesome! But then i'd have to buy a corsage for both of them (because i'd feel bad just getting one for one of them). another downside is that i'd feel like i'm just crawling back after being... well, basically rejected and tossed aside. and that's no fun.
3. Go alone. currently, this is what i think might end up happening. no dealing with corsages or whatever, but the downside of this is that i'd feel like the odd man out. even though it's ENTIRELY a ceremonial thing that means nothing, i still feel pretty bad when i think that everyone else in our group of friends would prefer to go with someone else, and i'm left out of the crowd. furthermore, my mom and dad are pressuring me all the time, asking me who i'm going with to prom. and i know that they'd be disappointed if i didn't have anyone to go with. i could always pretend that danielle or veronika or someone was my prom date just for them, but i'd still know inside that i was lying, and it just feels low class and sleazy.
4. Ask someone else. I of course can't forget that the school is filled with lots and lots of girls i haven't even thought of yet, and that's always an option. I could also ask some girl that our group is already on good terms with, so it'd be less awkward for the group. only problem HERE, is that it still IS a little awkward. I could always ask like Lisa or Devyn or someone, but they either a) won't want to be in the hotel room (and i am NOT wasting all that gas driving them home from downtown), or b) it'll just be awkward staying in a hotel room with them.
so i don't know. i'll figure out something, but i would GREATLY appreciate you guys (actual friends AND internet friends) giving me advice here.
ANYWAYS, so today's mother's day, and i got my mom some earrings and a matching necklace. she liked them, so that's nice. we also went to church, where i saw Gavin Bibby, and some black guy with super nappy hair and i wanted to touch it. but i didn't. yay self-control!