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I didn't just lose a parent, I lost a lifetime of having that love a father has for his daughter. He loved me so much and cared for me so much and I'll never have that again. I'll never be able to thank him or show him how much I really appreciated each and every little thing he ever did for me. I'll find love elsewhere, I know my friends and family and boyfriend love me, but to lose the love that came from my Dad is one of the most heartbreaking things. I know my mother loved me, she proved that every day, but we never had the connection I had with my Dad. I can cope with the loss of a parent, two parents even, I can try to get used to not seeing them or talking to them and all that, but I can never cope with the fact that I'll never have that kind of connection with anyone ever again. And I have to live the rest of my life without it. That's not fair.