He's Home...He's Really Really Home! :-)
Cole Cole got home last night about 8:30ish and it was SO great seeing him! He was so happy to see me as well...he jumped right in my arms and was hugging me and kissing me and he was squeeling like he was just thrilled to see me! It felt so damn good to get that kid back in my arms! Gosh I missed him so much, and when I saw him I realized I missed him even more than I thought I did! I also had a great time at King's Dominion yesterday with Mikey & his Dad, Sis & Her Hubby! I didn't get to ride Volcano (it's my favorite ride) b/c the line was so freaking long & I had to leave at 5 so I would get home in time to get Cole Ryan! It was a 2 hour drive and I thought it would totally suck by myself but it really didn't! I was glad about that...it actually went by quickly! My dad brought me Chase cuz Josh was at my grandmother's (that's where Ryan was bringing Cole) and Josh was so happy to see the BaBy! It was so sweet he just kept kissing all over him! And then when Cole got there those 2 were so happy to see each other too! It was easy to see how much Cole had grown in that week he was gone b/c he was a whole head taller than Josh and Josh is actually older than Cole! But Cole's real dad is 6'5 and I am 5'8 and my brother was 6'3 at 16 so I am quite sure that Cole is gonna be a tall boy! I'm glad...
May the 17th is the day my brother was killed 13 years ago! I found a letter that my mom wrote him shortly after, and it was talking about how much I miss him and how she can see the hurt in me everytime she looks at me! It really made my heart hurt, like I could feel that pain of losing him all over again! My brother and I were very close, we were 4 years apart and we really had a lot in common! Don't get me wrong, we fought like cats and dogs, what bro and sis don't? But at the same time we loved each other to death! I still really miss him, but I guess I have learned how to deal with the pain of it all! Sometimes I wonder how close he would be to my boys, or if he & Mike would be close! It's like every major event in my life is missing something b/c he isn't here to share in my joys with me! But I know he watching down on me everyday...and I can even feel him by myside at times! It's a very good feeling!
Anyway, I got to change the subject before I get myself crying! The 11th is Mikey's birthday! I don't know what to get him, he told me tools but I know nothing about tools so I told him to just go pick them out himself! I will get him a couple of surprises too...but as far as the tools go that's all him!
Ok well I am gonna go get me some shugga from Coley while Chase Mikey takes a nap! I hope you all had a great weekend...XoXo!
May the 17th is the day my brother was killed 13 years ago! I found a letter that my mom wrote him shortly after, and it was talking about how much I miss him and how she can see the hurt in me everytime she looks at me! It really made my heart hurt, like I could feel that pain of losing him all over again! My brother and I were very close, we were 4 years apart and we really had a lot in common! Don't get me wrong, we fought like cats and dogs, what bro and sis don't? But at the same time we loved each other to death! I still really miss him, but I guess I have learned how to deal with the pain of it all! Sometimes I wonder how close he would be to my boys, or if he & Mike would be close! It's like every major event in my life is missing something b/c he isn't here to share in my joys with me! But I know he watching down on me everyday...and I can even feel him by myside at times! It's a very good feeling!
Anyway, I got to change the subject before I get myself crying! The 11th is Mikey's birthday! I don't know what to get him, he told me tools but I know nothing about tools so I told him to just go pick them out himself! I will get him a couple of surprises too...but as far as the tools go that's all him!
Ok well I am gonna go get me some shugga from Coley while Chase Mikey takes a nap! I hope you all had a great weekend...XoXo!