life..
confusion, stress, loss....
satisfication..hmm. not pleased with my apartment, with the mess, with the lack of travelling, with my personal appearance and my belongings. i love my pets, and i love my books, but i think i could do with less crap and more structure. then again, i want to trash everything i own and do nothing but travel the world. how does one afford it? i know a girl who, every time i turn around, she's doing something fabulous and exciting. she doesn't have a job. how does she do it?
than again, i need a new mattress, and i'd love to paint the apartment...i know somewhere in me is creativity, but how come i feel like i'm supposed to? do i have talent in something? will a therapist be able to help me sort it out? will i spend the rest of my life questioning everything, or will i settle into some sort of confortable knowledge as i grow oldeR? i wish i could figure that out now, and not wait for the older part to happen :)
i gues we shall see.
satisfication..hmm. not pleased with my apartment, with the mess, with the lack of travelling, with my personal appearance and my belongings. i love my pets, and i love my books, but i think i could do with less crap and more structure. then again, i want to trash everything i own and do nothing but travel the world. how does one afford it? i know a girl who, every time i turn around, she's doing something fabulous and exciting. she doesn't have a job. how does she do it?
than again, i need a new mattress, and i'd love to paint the apartment...i know somewhere in me is creativity, but how come i feel like i'm supposed to? do i have talent in something? will a therapist be able to help me sort it out? will i spend the rest of my life questioning everything, or will i settle into some sort of confortable knowledge as i grow oldeR? i wish i could figure that out now, and not wait for the older part to happen :)
i gues we shall see.